| Emily's Pov | Three days later.
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3:40 a.m and im still not tired. I couldn't stop thinking about Anna , at the hospital.
Her mom seemed really mean , I just hope she's okay. That's all I can hope for.
My mother never beat me , epically not like Anna's mom. I wanted to do something about it , but all I could do was pray Anna would be okay.
"Emily?" Ethan asked leaning on the door frame.
"Yeah?" I replied turning around.
Me and Ethan isn't exactly great right now. I wanted to have a baby , and so did he. That's all we would argue about anymore.
No one would even mention the wedding . because it just makes me and him mad. And I don't know why.
We should of never went to hear that heartbeat. Now im afraid its affected mine and Ethan's relationship.
"Can we talk?" he asked.
I smiled and turned around. I'm glad he wanted to talk. Like I said , here lately he doesn't want to talk to me about anything.
"Me and you need to get away. Anywhere. Just far away from here."
"Ethan, we can't just up and leave. What about your mom?" I asked.
"We can tell her in the morning. She will understand, I promise." he replied smiling.
"Ethan , I don't know. Me and you aren't exactly on good terms." i said walking to the bathroom.
He shook his head, "Exactly, that's why me and you need to get away."
I turned around and smiled at him. "Are you sure? Just me and you?" I asked.
"Why are you questioning 'me and you'?" he asked pulling my hair behind my ear.
"Me and you haven't been happy since the night we left the doctors. We wasn't even happy , I was crying."
He shook his head and backed up. "That's not my fault Emily. And you know that."
I gave him a confused look, "I know its not. But you can't seem to not look at me , like you hate me for not being able to have a baby."
"Hate you?" he paused. "Emily , I can't ever hate you. I'm disappointed yes , but-"
"Disappointed?" I asked , crossing my arms.
"Emily , that's not want I meant. Im disappointed we can't have a baby."
I pushed on him to stay back. "If we go , there will be no talk about a baby. Got it?"
He smiled , and nodded. "Where do you want to go?" he asked.
"How about France? I've always wanted to visit the Eiffel Tower." I said smiling.
He nodded , "Paris it is. We better get packing , if we want to leave in the morning."
I nodded and walked over to my closet. Hopefully this helps me and Ethan.
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|Ethans Pov |
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"Paris?" my mom asked.
"That's where she wants to go." I said grabbing a muffin.
"Ethan , thats halfway across the world."
"So? Me and Emily need this mom. You said it yourself , me and her don't act like we love each other anymore."
"Okay , but Ethan I never said jump in a plane and travel across the globe." she said whipping the counter off.
"Its already done. Me and Emily are leaving in an hour." I said sitting down.
She came over and sat on the coffee table. I was ready for her to leave me alone , it was mine and Emily's choice.
"Ethan." she said in a very steady voice.
"What?" I asked confused. I knew what she had to say , wasn't going to be about Emily and I.
She took in a big sigh, and began to talk. "I know about Grayson, and Leah."
I sat up straight on the couch , and adjusted my jacket. "You do?"
She huffed. "Do you kids think im stupid?"
"No mom. But how did you even find out?" I asked.
"Well emily-"
I looked up at her and made wide eyes, "Emily told you?" I asked.
"Jesus Ethan. Would you shut your mouth and let me talk!" , She continued. "No, Emily did not tell me. I heard you and Grayson talking about it." she said crossing he legs.
"So why did you mention Emily's name?" I asked.
"She gave me the news at what happened at the doctors."
"Does gray know , you know?" I asked.
She shook her head, "No."
"Well mom , he's fine. Leah's just a bitch. You know this."
She laughed, "Language Ethan."
I rolled my eyes, "Grayson is fine. When he's ready to tell you , I promise he will tell you."
She nodded, "I know. He's a good boy. You both are."
"Really?" I laughed. "He got a girl knocked up and he's a good boy?"
She made a shocked face, "You did too Ethan."
I clenched my jaw and rolled my eyes. I still hadn't told my mom that me and Emily is mad and not on good terms , because of that.
"Ethan? What's wrong." she asked.
I took a deep breath, "Emily and I , aren't in good terms because of the whole 'baby' situation."
"You guys can't let that ruin you." she said shaking her head.
"I know. But every time I think about it it makes me mad. Knowing you can't ever have a family of your own sucks." I yelled.
"Ethan-"
"I don't know. I just , I feel like I need to be with someone who can give me a family." I said shaking my head.
"Ethan-"
"I love Emily , just sometimes it scares me. Being with her and her situations, that she has."
"My situations?"
I turned around to see Emily , with her hands in her jacket.
She had black all over her eyes from crying. I don't think I've ever hated myself more, than I do right now.
I'm sorry Emily.
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