Shadowed In Secrets

2- Is Everything Going To Be Ok?

I wake up to the noise of the wind howling. Darkness is filled inside the room. The only light is from a small window on the top of the wall opposite me but there is enough sunlight to see the my top was covered in dirt.

Confusion took over my brain.

Where am I?

As I look down, I see Belle huddled up in blankets and my arm wrapped around her holding her securely to my chest. There is a woolen blanket covering Belle and half of me.

Suddenly, I feel all of last night's events flood my brain. Oh gosh, I think I'm going to be sick. How am I still alive? How is did we manage to get away?

I can feel my body crave the comfort of my mum.

Right now, thinking of Mum is all I can do, not being able to go downstairs in the morning and seeing her panic telling me I have 5 minutes before school starts when really I have 20 minutes left and not having her there to tease me about boys (even though I was never really interested in them, I mean I wouldn't fan girl over boys they were just guys! But my mum never got that message) or not even having her there as someone to hug or a shoulder to cry on.

Tears rimmed my eyes and glossed over my vision of the poorly cleaned room.

I set Belle on the ground, untangling my arms from her small body and moving them to hug my legs closely to my chest.

The next thing I know I'm crying and I don't stop myself like I normally would. I just let it out. Mainly because I know that I have no interruptions and no one could judge me or tell me everything was going to be ok because I know that everything might not work out. I mean look at us we're both covered in filth and I probably just had the most uncomfortable and scariest night of my life.

To top it all of, I don't even know where I am!

Last night, I was so terrified that I didn't even look where I was running or what direction. It's not like I could see very well either! The night was pitch black, the only light source was from the stars and the full luminous moon which was interfered by the tall, naked trees from the forest. The whole town was covered in snow. That was my back up plan you see; we could have slept and hidden on the snow. Stupid, I know but when you're desperate you have to work with what you've got. I remember just about to give up and call it fate but that's when I ran into this small, isolated building. It was hidden in snow. So, I thought, why not? And that's how I got here. 'Here' that could be anywhere! I don't know where 'here' is.

However...maybe...just maybe, that's a good thing. That means that they can't find us because I'm definitely miles away from home.

Wow. Thinking back now, how did I run this far while carrying Belle? Actually, how did I run this far at all?!

It was definitely a few miles because the forest next to my house is at least a mile away and I had been running the forest for what felt like ages.

I had been running to this place and away from home. Can I even call it home? I mean I don't live there anymore. Or do I?

No. I don't even think I can to go back home, not after everything that has happened. It might not be safe.

Urgh, this is so confusing. Yesterday, I was a normal teenager with her biggest problem was not having too much course work.

I need to pull myself together!

Ok well, I guess that my home will always be my home. Maybe just the home that me and Belle used to live in, but still my home. I say 'used' because I don't think I want to go there again.

At least not now. It's too soon. I mean, it happened less than 10 hours ago. I don't need to think about that now.

Reality is brought back to me as my thoughts start to fade away.

As my reality comes back to me, I feel my head get heavy. See this right here is why I hate crying. My head gets heavy, my eyes feel droopy, I can feel puffiness under my eyes and I usually feel horrible inside.

However, this time I don't feel that horribleness inside. Well, maybe a little but not as much as I normally would have. I kind of feel a bit better, like that crying session was what I needed. My chest feels lighter, not a lot but still it makes a difference.

Weird, very weird.

I slowly pick my head up from my arms and as I glance on the floor next to me. My eye catch on to Belle as she starts silently sleeps. She looks so peaceful wrapped in her pink blankets with the thick, woolen, brown blanket that I found last night engulfing her.

Belle didn't deserve this, any of this. She's just a baby, she deserves to be in a real, secure family. Not this! Whatever 'this' is now. Before it was perfect, we had mum, a life, a home but now it's just her and me.

Tears threaten to come up again.

I lay down next to Belle, put my arm around her and in the softly whisper in her ear, 'Belle, I may not be able to make up for the loss of mum and sometimes this will be so hard but I love you Belle. Your my family, it's you and me against the world.'

My eyes fall heavy and sleep overcame me once again.

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Sorry for the long wait but life decided it would be horrible to me and delete my draft of the second chapter. So I had to rewrite it.

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