Stay With Me...

9

Holy hello, where have I been?! No, I did not die, as many of you have asked, I just took a little.... long.... really long break. This doesn't mean I coming back, but I do have some big (kinda) news!

I'm finishing this story, as well as a few others! Yes, I know, its surprising, but I feel like I owed it to you guys, considering everyone was begging me to finish what I've started. But after I finish these storys, I really want to start writing normal books as well, instead of just fanfic, which is why I've been gone for so long. I have really big things in the works. But I'm not gonna bug you with it right now, I know you guys juat wanna get to the chapter, so here ya go!

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"Can any of you believe that we're literally a few weeks from like, being adults?" Mallory said out of nowhere. we were all just sitting in a grassy field and looking at the sky. It seems stupid, but believe it or not, we have pretty deep conversations like this. 

Mallory was laying with her head resting against Sams leg, while he sat with his arms holding him up behind him. Colby was laying in the grass as my head rested against his stomach, he twirled some of my hair with his fingers as we gazed up at the sky. 

"God, I can't wait to get out of this place." I sighed. Mallory looked a me with a frown. She knew how bad I just wanted to leave and never see this place again. This stupid state, this stupid town, that stupid fucking hell of a house. 

"It feels like high school went by so fast." Colby stated. I nodded my head, agreeing. There was a thought that kept tugging at my brain, so i decided to let it out. 

"What about college?" I wondered. 

"Sam and I were actually thinking about doing YouTube as a career and just, skipping the whole college thing." Colby answered. 

"I actually wanted to tell you guys this earlier but never had the chance." Mallory sat up and looked around. I raised my eyebrow at her, silently telling her to go on. "I got accepted into the only college I wanted to go to..." She trailed off lazily, obviously not very excited about it. I gasped and jumped up.

"I'm so proud of you, Mal!" I yelled excitedly as I hugged her. "Why arent you excited? Thats really amazing!" Sam chimed in. 

"Because the college is in Italy..." Suddenly my smile fell and my excitement vanished. "What?" I said breathlessly. She looked at me with an apologetic look. "You mean... you're... leaving? Like, the country?" I couldnt even begin to imagine my life without her. Shes helped me through everything, from my dad leaving, to my mothers drinking problem, She's been there through all of it, I wouldnt know what to do with myself without her. 

"If I go, yeah..." She trailed off. I was silent, trying to grasp onto the idea that I might lose my best friend. It wasnt even an idea, It was fact. I was going to lose my best friend, because I wasn't going to let her pass up this once in a lifetime chance at having a career.

"No," I began, making everyone look at me. "There are no "If's" about it, you're going." I stated.

"But-" Mallory began, but I cut her off quickly. "You're going. When's the next time something like this could happen?"

Her eyes were on the ground. "I know, I just..." She paused for a moment and looked up at me, tears were beginning to form in her eyes. "I'm gonna miss you guys."

"Hey, stop. Stop crying. Right now." I ordered. Mallory bit her lip, staring at me as she kept herself from crying. "We still have a while before you leave, right? Lets make the best of it. Got it?" I said.

"Yeah, we don't have to worry about it for a long time." Sam said, grabbing her hand in his. Her eyes shot up to him as she nodded.

"Okay," I started after a moment of silence. "Lets move on from sadness, please. Anyone wanna go to the skate park? Its not that far." Everyone looked at me and nodded.

Standing up, we all began to walk towards the skate park. Sam and Mallory were walking a bit faster than Colby and I, so I decided to take this time to ask Colby something that had been on my mind all day.

"Hey, can I ask you something?" My voice was in a hushed tone so Sam and Mallory couldnt hear. Colbys head turned to me. "Of course." 

"You dont have to answer it if you dont want to..." I trailed of for a short second. I almost didn't want to ask it because I didn't want to bother him. I didn't want to push too far. If he doesn't want to answer, I mean, what can I say? I'm not telling him a large ammount of my life, i dont have any place to force him to tell me anything. 

"You got a text earlier, and it seemed like you were bothered by it, I was just wondering if you wanted to talk about it? I mean, you dont have to, if its something you don't want me to know, it's fine, I was just askin-" 

"Hey, hey, it's fine," He laughed slightly. "I'll tell you. I just didnt want it to bother you." He had a small smile playing on his lips. I furrowed my eyebrows, wondering how it would possibly bother me. 

"It was a text from my ex girlfriend. I just never respponded. I dont need to." Once he spoke, he shrugged nonchalantly. 

Now I see why. But I didnt want him to know. I mean, why should it bother me. We're not together... I think. Honestly at this point, I have no clue what we are. 

"Psh, why would it bother me?" I scoffed and looked over to him. He was staring straight ahead, but as soon as those words lefty my mouth, his head snapped toward me, giving me a knowing look. "Why wouldnt it?" He smirked. I just bit my lip and giggled, not answering. 

I watched Sam and Mallory a few yards in front of us as we walked, they were laughing and talking about things, i wasnt really paying attention to. 

"What did the text say?" I spoke after a small moment of sillence. "Wait, let me guess, something along the lines of 'Take me back, please!' or maybe the classic 'I've changed, I promise!'? Ive gotten those a few times." I joked, using a dramatic voice. Colby laughed and nodded. 

"Something like that. She started off sweet by saying that I deserved the best, then it went bitter when she followed up with- let me just show you this shit." He quickly pulled his phone out of his back pocket and pulled up the conversation. He handed me the phone gladly. 

My eyes scanned the screen. It was all messages from her, and he answered none of them, just left them on read. I wanted to laugh about it, but I kept it in. I read the very last text, which was this morning, and it said "Hey, just wanted to let you know, you deserve the best. So I'm here whenever you need me babe ;)"

I began laughing, unable to hold it in any longer. "I honestly don't know what to say to that." 

"Exactly." Colby laughed and shook his head.

 After a small moment of silence, he got close to my ear and whispered.  "But trust me, you have nothing to worry about." He said it barely loud enough for me to hear it, while kissing my cheek. Though I knew it was suppised to be a joke, that didn't stop my cheeks from buring red and a smile taking over my face. We both looked at each other and Colby had an incoent smile on his face. 

Looking forward, we both continued to walk, not saying anything. I soon felt Colby intertwine his fingers in mine, and squeeze my hand slightly. 

As much as I want a conformation as to what we are, it's obvious at this point that we're not 'just friends', and I'm totally okay with it.