Letters To Emotions

Dear Love,

Dear Love,

How does one find you? I've searched for years yet you deceive me by allowing others to use your face upon theirs to hide their true colors. They use you in their smiles to paint a picture to hide truth, or in their eyes to bury the hatred they direct towards others but you never stopped them. I craved you, I wanted you, I needed you but I never found you.

I first searched for you in the eyes of my mother but as time passed I realized I could not. I tried to look for you in the smiles of my friends, but the scowls that resided behind them made me stop. And as time passed, I wished for your opposite more as I saw what happened when one goes to deep trying to find you. My sister searched for you in the beds of others but it left her broken as you did not save her when she needed you most. I watched others take upon the quest of finding you alongside your friend hope however they failed each time.

Why do you allow others to feel such pain? Does it please you? Are you just a challenge? A never-ending quest? A road that knows no end? A dedication that is tested until they are visited by Death?

I had a hope to find you. To feel you. To pass on what I felt. I failed. And you watch others go down the same path as I, yearning for your opposite as it welcomes them home, but you do nothing and just watch.

Love, you broke me. I just have one question to ask.
Why?