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- D I A R Y E N T R Y #3 -
11.10.16 // 10:13 a.m.
As I was watching everyone cry over Blaire, I couldn't help but to feel my heart drop to my stomach. Blaire was just one person, that's all she was. But without her physically here, the world already felt depopulated.
I wanted to shout and tell them she wasn't dead. I wanted to cry along with them. I also wanted to tell them that I was in on the whole thing.
But instead, I sat there, twirling with the ends of my scratchy black dress as I stared straight ahead, showing no type of emotion on my face. T says emotions make you weak and weakness is vulnerability, something that would tear me apart until I was nothing but shreds.
But, that's what T didn't understand, I am already shreds. No one knew the real me, no one knew what I went though everyday to keep my secret safe. I didn't want this life, I never did.
It's crazy how someone as perfect and loved as Blaire had to be dragged into all of this. I keep telling myself that she deserves this.
She deserves this. She deserves this. She deserves this.
She's doesn't deserve this.
No one does.
I am falling apart, piece by piece. I am cracking open like a porcelain doll hitting the ground in slow motion. I want to escape this life. I need to escape this life.
And there is only one way to do that.
Only one way to end my misery. For good.
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