I woke up and it's morning again..
time is flying so fast...
today.. we're going to take the body of my appa to the funeral.. hmm.. appa...
Jinhan honey.. are you ready.? we have to go now.. mom shouted at the other side of the door..
just a minute mom.. just wait for me.. I'm going out soon..
okay.. I'll just wait for you outside...
okay mom..
~~~~~~~~ at the hospital..
I held the hands of my mom... "umma it's going to be okay.." and I hugged her..
I love you honey..
we took our last glance at my dad.. and mom kissed him.. and I hugged him..
I will truly miss you dad.. I love you..
my eyes went teary again but I held it back because I know that appa don't want to see me cry over him..
I hope you're happy at heaven appa..
tell me if it's good there okay..? I smiled at him and the nurse put him in theambulance and we went to the funeral...
this day happened too fast..
~morning again..
today is going to be my dad's interment.. our house is full of sadness.. it's so quite.. I went outside of my room and a flashback went to my mind..
*I'm very happy for you baby.. and guess what..
who are we having for dinner?
who mom.?
it's your dad..
oh where is he?
in the kitchen of course..
hi daddy I missed you so much.. don't leave us again daddy..
okay honey, just wait.. okay it's done honey, the dinner's ready to eat..
hey baby girl, so I heard that you and Kyungsoo are now okay ey?
yes dad.. i talked to him lately..
so are you going out with him now.?
aniyo dad.. hmm that'll wait..*
I went to the living room and I saw my dad's picture with me and mom..
tears are falling through my eyes..
"dad,, I know you can hear me.. I love you always remember that okay?"
dad" ... I hugged the picture and wind blew through me..
but why.... the windows are closed and the door too...
grrr.. (goosebumps)... I think dad answered me... hmm.. I miss you dad.. I smiled at the picture and kissed it...
honey where are you.. we have to go now.. mom said while getting out of the room..
I'm here mom.. let's go...
we're now here at the cemetery..
all the co-workers of mom and dad are here..
of course the EXO and Yeonha and the others are some of our friends.. relatives ofcourse and the priest....
*in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit amen...
my dad is now burried at the ground... I once again took a glance at him and bid goodbye.. ""I love you dad..""
Jinhan.. do you want to cool out for a while.? Yeonha asked me..
okay.. I'll just ask my mom.. if she'll let me..
~mom can I go with Yeonha for a while.? I just want to cool out for a while mom.. can I.?
of course honey.. but go home early okay.?
yes mom.. thank you..
~~~~~~
while we're walking away..
the guys called our names..
~yah Jinhan!!! Yeonha!!!..
we both looked back.. wae.? we said in unison
we want to come too... Chen yelled..while running..
~is it okay for you Jinhan.?
hmm.. maybe I'll need them later.. it's okay..
~yes you can come.. Yeonha yelled at them.. and the boys jumped with happiness hmm.. maybe because we let them to be with us..
but when they they're at our spot.. I made an expression so that they'll stop cheering and jumping..
guys.. just be quiet for now okay? Yeonha said to them.. I think she read my mind..hmm..
~so where are we going? Chanyeol asked..
AT THE BEACH...
WHAAAAT???????? they were all shocked and their mouths are left open..
and I was shocked too.. but I didn't let them see it.. I'm sad remember.?
~~close your mouths guys.. bugs might fly there.. ahahaha... :D
oh..er.. ahm by the why are we going to the beach? Baekhyun asked..
yes. and what are we going to do there.? Kai asked
and.. we didn't planned for it.. do we have budget for it.? Suho asked...
and what specific beach are we going.? D.O. asked...
~~~aigoo.... guys you have so many questions.. you're the one who asked if you want to come so just chill ang give me some money and we'll budget everything...
so everyone of them.. gave her some money but not that high I think because they are so many to give something... I tried to give something but Yeonha insisted.. and I'm very thankful because she's my bestfriend my only one.. :))
~~so here we are at the bus..
D.O.'s POV
after we gave our money to my cousin.. she made the budget very well.. she's too young for budgeting things..
and here we are at the bus..
the bus was barely full because of us.. we're toomany but thanks God we fitted in
I am going to sit beside Jinhan...
while we're sitting I looked at her..
her face was full of sorrow.. sadness.. I think her inside is crying and screaming...
~do you want to talk.? I asked her..
hmm.? me.?
yes.. you.. you want to talk.?
~do you know the feeling that the half of your life is fading.?
the feeling that ..the someone you loved is now gone..