"Tom w-wait." I tugged his arm down. He gave me a confused look but I kept tugging.
The door to the car opened and I stepped out from behind Tom and took a step closer, "Alex?"
Just like that did I realize this web of lies was going to jeopardize my future with Alex. I felt sick in the pit of my stomach and of course I couldn't build up the courage to say anything. Like always he was the first to speak up. So much for wanting to change.
"So this is the real you?" Alex scoffed with a fake smile on his face. He clicked his tongue and took a step closer and Tom tried stepping in front of me but I tugged on his sleeve.
"Leave us alone." I instructed
His eyes looked worried, "But Miss, I don't-"
"Please just follow my orders Tom. I'll be right in." I said in a low voice but he heard and his eyes went wide.
"Miss? So he isn't even your uncle like you had told me?" Alex pulled on his hair.
Tom nodded as he ignored Alex's comment and walked inside. I turned my attention to a frustrated looking Alex.
"I'm sorry." I whispered only loud enough for him to barely hear.
"Sorry for what Mia? For lying to me about practically everything? Do I even know the real you?" He asked with a croak, "Why was telling me all this so hard? I don't understand Mia. I thought you trusted me-"
"I thought you'd never want to talk to me if you knew about my life okay!" I yelled
His eyes widened even more and got close enough to grab my hand, "What made you think that? Did I ever give you the impression I would?"
I shake my head, "My life isn't as it seems." I sighed "You're probably thinking 'oh how hard can the life of a spoiled wealthy brat be'-"
"No, that is not what I am thinking."
"I was going to tell you Alex, I swear just when things got serious of course. It's not easy for me to talk about my life to just anyone"
"Ouch. So I am just anyone. Nothing else?" He seemed hurt. Shit that is not what I meant.
I shake my head vigorously, "No that's not what I meant. I wanted to make sure our relationship would go somewhere before I spilled my life to you. Like I said earlier my life is a huge mess. That's partially why I haven't talked to you in a while."
He nods, "Okay, would you like to tell me now then? I really would like to know who you are not the fake you."
It's now or never Mia.
"Okay, uhm let's go inside it's getting chilly out." I begin my way up the door.
"alright." He agrees and as I open the door I see Matilda whisper yelling at Tom but both stop once I walk inside.
I turn to Alex and his mouth is partly opened as he takes in what he is seeing. I mentally roll my eyes and look back at Tom and with my look I tell him it's okay.
"Are you hungry? Anything to drink?" I offer Alex before I lead him into the study.
"Uhm just water if that's okay?" Alex tells me
I nod and look back at Matilda, "Please, Make that two Matilda." She nods and hurries away.
"Is she like your maid?" Alex asked
"Uhm she's in charge of keeping the home the way my parents liked it. She's also the cook. So basically yes. But she's like family." I smile
He nods understandingly.
"Okay lets head to the uh study." I say and walk ahead of him as he follows and walk inside to thankfully see the cops had placed everything where it was originally. I take a seat at my father's desk and he on the other side, his eyes wandering at all the books in the shelf.
"My parents were lawyers." I pointed to the books.
"Wow"
I nod, "So you want to hear it all?"
"Yes, I want to know you and if that means knowing what is hurting you so much so be it. I'm ready I promise."
"You won't run?"
"You're not some psycho killer are you?" He raised a brow in confusion
I chuckle, "NO!"
"Phew good, okay then no I won't run."
I nod, something I seem to be doing a lot. Just as I am about to start Matilda hands us both our waters and excuses herself.
I opened a drawer and pulled out some keys from it and got up to open a small safe behind my dad's chair. I pulled out the manila folder and dropped it in front of Alex who jumped in his seat.
"What's this?"
"Open it."
He looks at me wearily and does as I say and pulls out cut out newspaper articles about my deceased parents, the disappearance of my sister, the will, and the most recent one uprising rumors that my parents may have been narcs.
"I don't get what I'm supposed to be looking at." Alex shakes his head as his eyes scan everything.
"Okay, so I was obviously raised in a wealthy home. My best friend Amy, Two hard working loving parents and my sister Griselda were my family. My only family." I made that clear
"You have a sister?"
"I don't know anymore but that's coming up. Anyway, my best friend was dragged across the globe because her parents hated me. My parents were lawyers and always traveled for business purposes and my sister and I spent most of our time together. One night we waited for our parents to arrive from their longest trip yet and I remember..." I sat back on the chair and smiled as I vividly went back to that day "Hearing the car come up the driveway and running down the stairs with my sister behind me. after saying our Hello's and our I miss you's, a guy in all black shot my parents dead." I stopped to wipe a tear that left my right eye. I cleared my throat when I saw Alex try to reach for my hand but I shook my hand and rested my hands on my lap instead. I don't need his pity. Not anyone's.
"I'm sorry"
I nod, "Me too. A while later after their funeral we get their will and a letter from them, as if they knee one day this would happen..." I pulled the note out from beneath all the papers and handed it to him to read. "Basically saying my sister was adopted and well I had found out like a week before they were murdered I just didnt have it in me to break the news to her. She hated me for not telling her the truth. She left me and fled. I don't even know where she is right now or if she's even alive." I started to sob "I wish I could see her again. I begged her to stay. I told her the house, the money, and everything was hers as much as it was mine. She refused any of it. She took the money she had saved up thought the years and the clothes she packed in her luggage and left me alone in this big house."
"Wow, Mia I don't know what to say."
"There's more."
His eyes widened but nods understandingly
"Later my boyfriend of so long started to treat me horribly and began to physically and emotionally hurt me. I didn't end things with him because well he was all I had. However soon things went from bad to worse... He forced himself on me and left me in pain after he was done." I stood up quickly as pictures of that morning popped into my mind.
"It hurt so much. I never felt so much pain. It-It destroyed me." I said as I paced back and forth.
"Did he go to jail?"
I shake my head, "I forgave him."
"What?!?" He shot up catching me off guard "Why not?!?"
"I saw no reason to. He apologized and told me he was drunk and just upset over some family problems and that he felt like because we hadn't had sex after dating so long that we would fizzle out. He wanted another chance but I told him no" I sighed "Anyway later I meet you and I dont know what to do or how to feel because you're actually a nice guy. I thought I'd never be able to trust again but somehow you just swept me off my feet. Don't get me wrong I still have tons of problems starting with the fact that the detectives looking into my parents murderer said that there was evidence that my parents were involved with narcs."
"Narcs? Like drug dealers you mean?"
I nod, "Yeah, which explained the entire traveling thing because like what lawyer travels that much?!?! So they get a search warrant and they found evidence I think so now they need to link it to the murderer and arrest them. So that's my life." I explain.
He stands up and runs a hand through his hair as he let's out a deep heavy sigh, "That's a lot to take in." He gave me a look I couldn't quite describe.
This is exactly what I was afraid of. Afraid that he'd realize I have too much baggage to be with me. I walk towards the door with my hands in my pockets and open the door to let him out.
"What are you doing?"
I raise a brow, "Letting you go?"
"I'm not going anywhere. What you think that I'd leave you because you've gone through a lot in your life?"
"Uh yeah?"
He chuckles, "Mia, if anything you don't fail to amaze me. I think you're a strong independent woman. I find that so attractive on you. I don't ever think I've met someone as strong as you." He said as he walked towards me and took my right hand as he pulled me to his chest. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying." He paused "only if you want me to of course?"
I smiled, "of course I do."
A/N
Sorry for taking forever. I've been working everyday! Hope you enjoy!
