I'm Still Here (Ally/You)

Chapter 45

Allyson's POV

Let me watch as you find your happiness with your new lover

Let it sink into my mind that you've find another

Let me drown myself on the tears that never escaped my eye

Let my heart break into tiny pieces tonight

Let me feel your love one last time

Your love, Fake it

My heart, Break it

Your tears, Hide it

My love, Don't mind it

Let me feel you in my arms one more time

Let me spend the night with your hands on mine

Let the pain stop my heart from beating

Let me know I'm still alive by feeling

Give me nothing but just this

Let me have my one last kiss

Go find your happiness with him

Grant my one last wish

Live your life and make loving memories with him

I pray that he never breaks your heart

Don't be sad because that's my part

I'll leave as the clock strikes three

By then, let me set myself free

Let me get used to the feeling until I don't feel it no more

Let me love you until I can't take it anymore

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Those are her last words. THE last words. We did everything we used to do, watched the sunrise and the sunset, watch a movie with the girls, she cooked a meal for us while I baked her favorite cookies, she hugged me tight as the time passes by, she never let go of my hand as we walked to the park where we first met, she looked at me with nothing but love in her eyes, she gives me light forehead kisses, she slept beside me one last time.

I woke up the next morning without her by my side, as promised, she's gone. She left with no trace and all I can do is cry my heart out. I walked to my closet to find comfort with her jacket but it's gone. She took every single bit of herself and there's nobody else to blame but me. It's been a month but I still couldn't get over it.

I went downstairs to get something to eat in an empty kitchen on an empty house of an empty heart.

"Good morning" Lauren said

I was taken aback my her greeting, she never really wanted to talk to me after what happened, "G-good Morning Lo" I looked down waiting for a tone or a word of rejection but it didn't happen

"Sit down and let's eat" she said as she took a seat beside Camila

I sat on the aisle still shocked, "Am I dreaming?" I mean we're complete! On the table! And they're all happy!

"No silly" Dinah chuckled "I told you Lo. We should've broken it to her gently"

"Eh, that's exactly the same" she shrugs

"You're not dreaming mom" Camila said

"And no! You're not dead yet" Mani laughed as if she read my mind

"Do you want me to pinch you to make sure?" Dinah said

"Sorta.... OUCH!"

"Now?"

I felt a tear escaped my eyes before bursted out crying

"DINAH LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID!!!" Mani scold her "Als don't cry"

"No *sniff* it's just that *sniff* I'm happy that *sniff* we're back"

"We can't be mad at you forever, we love you Als" Lauren smiled at me, something I saw in quite a long time since I cheated on y/n

"I'm sorry. I never should've done that" I looked down, still embarrassed of what I've done "I ruined my relationship with y/n and I almost ruined our friendship"

Dating Will while dating y/n is the biggest mistake I've done in my life. I broke the heart of someone who never did anything but love me.

"Well y/n's alright. She's moved on" Dj shrugs "So we have no reason not to"

I felt a familiar sting on my heart knowing that she moved on. I guess I'm not yet ready for her to get over me because I'm not yet over her.

"Plus it's Dj's birthday!" Camila squealed

"Oh right! Happy Birthday Dinah" yeah I totally forgot about that. Ever since y/n left I felt like my life has no meaning. I can never be the same without her.

"Wanna get her back?" Lauren smirks, maybe she saw right through my mind

Everyone on the table stopped and waited for me to answer

"I think it's time for you to answer THE question mom" Mani smiled "Do you still love her?"

"You know the answer Als, the right answer" Dj said

"Doesn't matter" I sighed "you said so yourself... she's moved on"

"Do you really believe every nonsense shit cheechee says?"

"Ummm-"

Dj gasped, "seriously?"

"She never even heard anything from y/n, how would she know?" Mani laughed

"Answer the question Allyson Brooke Hernandez" Lauren said sternly

Do I? Of course I do. But I have Will now.

"Oh FUCK WILLIAM BRACEY!" Lauren cussed "answer the fucking question by your heart"

"Yes, I do"

"EYYYYY!" They all cheered

"Now get her back! You do know where she is right?" Mani said making me nod

"Then what are you doing?" Lauren smiled encouragingly and threw me her car keys "Go get your girl!"

"I will" I smiled and immediately left the apartment to go to the place where we first met

I'll get you back y/n, I promise everything will be okay.

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