How could you? / Reiner x reader (AU / Attack on Titan)

How could you? - Ch6

This chapter is based on the events of the 97 edition of the manga

I walk quickly, hiding my face with my hair. I try to pass unnoticed.
Reaching the building I believe is the right one, I look around, not sure were to start.

"Excuse Miss, you can't be here"

I look down to find a boy standing in front of me. He must be 11, maybe 12 years old. He is a little over average height.
The kid has shaggy black hair and dark eyes and is wearing oval shaped goggles instead of glasses. He remains me of Hanji... where she might be now? Is she still alive?

"Miss, you can't be here." His imperious voice takes me out of my trance.

"Sorry kid, have you seen Reiner?" I ask

"Kid? I'm not a kid!" He steps back clearly offended by my choice of words.

"Sorry, of curse not, you are clearly a warrior" I try to make emends as soon as possible.

"Can you please tell me where Reiner is?" I ask again

"You mean official Braun? Who is looking for him?" He asks, standing tall.

"(Name) (last name), and your name?" i title my head. I don't have time for this. Something is wrong, I can feel it.

"I'm Cadet Udo"

"Nice to meet you Udo" I try to smile.

"Why are you looking for official Braun?"

"I'm his, he's my... I'm his girlfriend" I said a little embarrassed having to explain myself to a kid.

"Oh.. I have head about you. You're that woman he brought from that island." He say looking at me up and down.

"Yes, that's me" I sigh "Can you PLEASE tell me where he is?" I beg him.

"He was here a wile ago. He took one of the sooth guns and left" He say look right and left. I assume
he is worried about getting caught talking to me.

"A shotgun?" I look at him eyes widen.

"Yes, I guess he was going to do some shooting training" He say as if it is something common

"Can you tell me where he went?" I try to hide my increasing nervousness

"I don't know exactly, but he went that way" He points at a big old Grey building with small windows. It is quite far,
at the other side of the Headquarters campus.

"Thanks" I murmur as I turn on my heels and head towards the building.

"Miss! You can't go in there!" He yells at me. , But I am already on my way, running as fast as I can.

As soon as I enter the building i start looking around. It is old and seems to be abandoned. But it is clean.
The first floor consist of a long hallway, with many identical doors. I walk down the hallway, trying to open them all.
Some are already open, others are close but unlocked. Only one door is looked.

I press my ear against the Grey wooden door. Just complete silences. Suddenly I hear someone inside. The noise is like a soft sigh.

"Reiner, are you in there?"

Silence again. Then, some kind of metallic noise. I start knocking on the door with all my strength.

"Reiner! Please! Open the door! I know you are in there!!" I'm starting to fell more and more desperate, hopeless.
My mind spinning. Is he thinking about killing himself?

My body is full with an agonizing feeling that is tearing my chest apart. I can't lose him.

I try to turn, shake even break the door knob. It doesn't move.

I hear a voice, but it is coming from outside.
Some kid, he is angry about something. I think about asking him for help, but what could he do?

I start kicking. Hitting the door with my fists.

"Reiner! Listen to me! Don't do this! You can't do this! I need you please! Open the door!"

"REINER!" I keep knocking and calling him.

Any hope for relief is thwarted by the agony and sadness that haunts me when I get no response
from inside the room. It is too late? He already, did it? Did I imagine those sound? Is he dead?

Finally, my body collapses against the door. I tumble to the ground. Warm tears streaming down my face. I can't stop crying.

"Reiner please, I will never forgive you, don't let me alone, please, I love you" my voice almost a wispier now.

I hear a creak of the wooden floor boards. The door opens. I look up from the ground, Reiner is standing at the door, looking at me.