Bodyguard (completed)

Ch. 24

Izaya's pov

"S-shizuo please, I don't think I can listen to this..." I say on the verge of tears.

He lifts up my chin up and looks me in the eyes. He leans in and brings his face next to mine. I don't know whether to be terrified or not right now.

He connects our lips, bringing me closer to him closing the space between us.

I start to kiss him back as he holds the back of my neck, with his other arms resting around my waist, I put my hands around his neck to stop me from falling over.

I don't know how I feel right now, I'm happy that he's kissing me, but terrified of what will happen after this.

He pulls away from me, I start to blush and look down at my lap, bringing my arms to my side.

"I-I don't understand, I thought-" Shizuo cuts me off. "I love you, I think you can handle a relationship, do you want that?" He asks me playing with my hair.

"Y-yeah.." I say trying to be a bit more confident. " but, if we get into a relationship, I need you to trust me 100% and I want to trust you too" he says.

"That means that if you attempt...suicide.. again then I don't think I'll be able to cope" he says sadly.
" can I trust you to talk to me?" He asks.

"Y-yeah, you can trust me" I tell him pressing my head into his chest. "Can you tell me how your feeling right now?" He asks.

"I..I feel mixed emotions...I'm happy to be here with you, but I feel depressed because I'm such a mess.." I say quietly.

"What about you is a mess?" He asks playing with my hair, " I just am.. I have bandages all up my arms, my hairs a mess, I can't control my emotions either" I say looking to the side.

" your not a mess, you've just hit a really ruff patch right now, we can get through it" he says lying down bringing me to lie on top of him.

"But-" Shizuo cuts me off.
" you need to sleep now, I can tell your tired so relax" he says.

I lie down and rest my head on Shizuos shoulder, and close my eyes.
"There you go, just sleep" he says.

He starts humming and pretty much lulls me to sleep.

Shizuo POV

I look down at izaya who's sleeping on top of me, I have my arm around him to stop him from falling of me, I managed to tell him that I love him, and he said the same back.

I really do care about him a lot, and now we're in a relationship. I'm happy, but Izaya can't see past that night just yet.

We didn't bother getting changed into pyjamas since he looked very tired anyway.

I'm wearing my usual get up and izaya's wearing a pair of jeans and a short sleeve top, I meant to pick a long sleeve one but I was rushing to go see him so I picked up whatever I could find.

Both of his arms are bandaged up to the shoulder, one of them stop just before his hand and he other one is wrapped around it. I assume that's where they had to connect the drip.

I pick one of his arms up, I think this is the worst they've ever been, I put his arm buy his side and wrap my arm around him.

As much as I want a serious relationship I don't think he could handle it in his condition. I decide to carry him to bed, I don't wanna wake him up cause he won't go back to sleep otherwise.