War Is THE Answer

The Beginning

       The beginning isnt always beautiful or simple in life. I was raised mainly by my mother who did her best to keep me happy but sometimes you can't always keep people happy. I have had 3 step fathers. I was horribly abused when i was extremely young. Around 3 I had a step father who use to yank me around my room by my ear and my step sister use to take most of it for me. There ain't many people would take a beating for someone else. I don't know where she went but i do miss her and owe her much. Any ways back to the topic. I have a huge fear of people pulling in my ears. I just can't handle it because it makes me afraid so i get violent off of it. Then around the age of 7 I believe my uncle who was an army soldier hung himself. I didn't know this until I was 12. Anyways he came back from a deployment to the middle East and found his home empty of his wife and two kids. She left him and took them with her. He felt like nothing mattered anymore and hung himself. My mother's side is afraid of me becoming affected by the military in a negative way. My father served in the Marine Corps for 16 years. He is highly emotional and needs a lot of medicine to keep his memories and mind calm. My uncle was a wonderful soldier and my father is a great marine. I admired them so much i use to wear their work clothes because it reminded me of them. I have so much respect for them. And back then I wanted to be just like them. Turns out we are all different though.