Fighting for her love

A new leaf

Toby's POV

After I said goodbye to Spencer, I started my car and headed back home. I thought a lot about what Spencer said, and how she really felt about me.

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When I got pulled into the driveway, I got out the car and locked it. As soon as I went inside I placed the keys in the holder next to the door. I live alone...all alone. 

Then all of a sudden..

"AHHHHHHHRG" I screamed as I began breaking thing. I flipped the wooden table

'DAMMIT' I screamed again as went to the kitchen and began breaking the glasses

I went over to the wall and punched it and it made a hole. I was so angry, so very angry, but not at Spencer

but at myself, because of what I put her through. She wouldn't be so scared to love if I hadn't left her. We could've been married, have kids, live somewhere she wants to be. We could've have it all. After punching the wall, my knuckles bleed and I fall to the floor crying, sobbing

"What have I done, I'm sorry Spencer" I cried pulling my knees to my chest and cry on my knees.

I know I said that I can't live my life without Yvonne, well I was wrong. Yes I was devestated she's gone, but with Spencer not wanting to ever be with me hurts. It hurts more than being in a car crash. Why do I lose everyone I love?

"Spencer doesn't want me anymore, and it's all my fault" I said to myself. 

I then get up and cleaned the place, and as I'm cleaning I think of ways to be with Spencer again

Spencer's POV

"So what was it you called for all of us to meet?" Alison smirks as she sips her coffee

"Oh before we get to that, did everything go okay with Toby?" Emily asked

"Wait hold up, you met with Toby" Alison joins in

"What did you guys talk about" Hanna also joins in

"Well I told him how I felt, how I really felt about him after everything since the pregnancy scare, the conversation was brutal, mostly yelling...at him" I said

"So did he understand?" Alison chimed in

"He did, he understood how I felt" I gave a small smile

"Does this mean you guys are back together" Hanna asked with a little hope

"That's the thing, I mainly want to tell you guys, I'm not getting back with Toby..Ever" I said

"What" all three of them yelled

"W-what, why, I thought speaking with him would change your mind" Emily said shaking her head

"No Em, I already told you this.Everything is ruined for us guys. The scare, Caleb, Yvonne, him proposing, getting married, her dying and him being raped. I dont want to be the girl who's his other option because his stupid wife died" I tear up "You guys wouldn't understand, you got everything. I didn't" I said standing up to get my 4th cup of coffee

"I'm so sorry Spencer, I never knew you felt like this" Hanna apologizes. 

'So what are you going to do" Alison ask

"I'm turning a new leaf. For now on I'm going to be single. It will give me the time to focus on what I want, I can start interior design, liked I planned in 11th grade, and also I really want a kid" I smile

"Well if this is going to make you happy, then we fully support" Emily smiles and the rest nods

"So about the kids, how are you going to do that. Are you going to adopt, have a surrogate, or a sperm donor" Alison asked

"Sperm donor, I can get pregnant, thank God for that. So I want the full experience, but that won't happen until I work for about 2 years" I said

"Well single Spencer looks like you got it all planned, but I have to go now. Jordan is taking me to an Ultrasound" Hanna says as she picks up her bag "Bye guys" Hanna waves and leaves

"Well we have to go to, we are taking the twins shopping, wanna go" Emily asked

"Aww thanks but no thanks, I have jobs to search for, I will see you guys tomorrow" I said

"Come on Ali, lets go"Em says

"you go, I just want to talk to Spencer quickly, just wait in the car" with that Emily leaves

"So what's up" I asked

"Have you spoken to Aria, lately" she asked

"No, and I don't plan to either, I may have forgotten her, but I don't want her in my life anymore" I spat

"I understand that, but if you can at least try to be in the same room as her. We are throwing the twins a birthday party and I want all of us there, so please."

"She-

"Yeah I know, what she did was horrible, breaking up your family for her stupid husband was beyond low, and trust me I don't want her there, but I'm doing this for Emily. please for you favorite cousin" she pleads

'Fine, I'll go, just don't expect me to be all buddy buddy" I said

'Deal" she smiles hugging me and leaves.

great now I have to deal with Aria now.