alternative (UNDER CONSTRUCTION)

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Zeta's POV

Jax visited Adelyn and I in the hospital before we got to leave. My whole body ached, but I was numb to it from past experiences. Also, I didn't really care since I was distracted by my baby daughter's beautiful face. The whole car drive home, I played with her little feet and held her tiny hands.

Jax snickered, "Wow, you must love her more than me." I laughed, "No!" I beamed down at her. "She's beautiful." Jax whispered "She has your eyes." I examined them, "Really? I think that they look more like yours." He shook his head, "No, she's got my nose." I smile and roll my eyes, "You're such a dork."

I rest my head on his shoulder. I was exhausted and I just needed a moment to breathe in his refreshing scent. You know, the masculine kind they don't believe they have but you love it so much you don't want to let go of him and just make a perfume out of it?

When we get home, I spent the next few days showing Adelyn to everyone; my friends, relatives, etc. I wouldn't let anyone hold her, though. I barely trusted Jax, let alone anyone else. But I put that aside and allowed it only to certain people.

"Jenny?" I asked my aunt one day "Do you think I should show her to my parents?" She exhaled deeply as she thought for a minute, "I honestly believe that that's up to you. It's your child, honey." I look down at Adelyn, "They are her grandparents... You know what? I'm going to do it, I'll be back soon." I grab my keys and my purse as I head outside. I unlock my car and buckled Adelyn in her car seat.

I drove to the city jail and informed the cops at the front desk that I was there to visit my parents. I gave them their names then went to go sit down and wait. Finally, an officer led me to the phone things and I talked to my mother first.

"I'm getting out next year." She says.
I sighed, "That's good... that's good."
She wiped underneath her eyes, "Zeta, I am so so sorry for what we put you through. I never should have been drinking that much let alone let it control me! I'm so sorry."
I felt tears coming too, "I forgive you, mom. I love you."
"I love you too, sweetie."
I smirked, "Um... mom. There's something I needed to show you."

I picked up Adelyn from her car seat and showed her to my mother. My mom was speechless and started crying again. "Meet your granddaughter, Adelyn." She smiled, "Oh, she's precious... I wish that I could hold her, and that I'd been there... she looks just like you..."

My dad didn't have the exact same reaction, "Who's the father?" he asked. "Jax Brown. My boyfriend." He only slouched back into his seat, folding his arms across his chest. "Dad, I'm an adult now and I can make my own decisions so don't get mad at me for it. You're lucky that I've forgiven you and am here visiting in the first place."

He smirked as a small chuckle escaped from his lips. I jumped out of my seat, "You know what, I'm not dealing with this right now. If you don't want to be apart of my life except for the scars and haunted memories then fine!"

And with that, I grabbed Adelyn and nearly stormed out of there. You could tell that he was sober and wasn't high, but because of that, he's been angry and craving them... I can tell.

"Wait," he called "Come back... I'm... sor-ry." I sat back down with Ada in my arms. Even her warmth couldn't distract from his ice cold soul. Maybe it was beginning to thaw, but I knew that this would take time.

"Dad...?"
We sat there in silence looking down at the ground, then at each other, and then at the ceiling for a long time until... he just... started crying. "I'm so sorry, Zanetta!"
I began tearing up myself, "Dad?"
"Z-Zanetta... you're my daughter... and I can't imagine h-how or why you could ever forgive me... after what I've done to you... and put you through. All I can say is, I'm sorry, even though I know that that doesn't make up for anything or fix it at all."
"D-Dad... I love you and I do forgive you. I just think we need the break to recover from each other."
He nodded, "Y-Yes, of course. That makes sense."
"But I just wanted to show you... your granddaughter."
He beamed, "She looks just like you." a sigh came from his mouth "I wish I wasn't behind this glass so I could hug both of you."
I put my hand up against it, "Me too, Dad."
He did the same.

I left with a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. The whole scenario made me feel so much better and there was this big feeling of satisfaction. I drove home and ate dinner, then I went to sleep next to Adelyn.

The thing about newborns is... THEY... WON'T... EVER... STAY... ASLEEP!! She kept waking up for what seemed like every 15 minutes to eat or because she was uncomfortable or for some other reason.

But I guess that this is the life of a parent... and an adult. The whole situation is so trippy. I'm so scared, but yet... I couldn't be happier!

Jax and I are going to do college online and continue saving up for an apartment or small house, or whatever we can afford. We're nearly there! We're so close to beginning our next chapter.

I can't wait to see what the future holds...

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