Burden

Chapter 5

I put on my floral skater dress with my navy blue converse. I went down and off i go with my pennyboard. I look at the clock.I was late for school so I decided to skip school again. But instead I went to the garden. Although the things happen to me the last 6 years keep on running through my head like a video recorder, I keep on trying to forget Don. Few minutes later, I sat down on my usual place, near the pond beside the bridge. Looking at the perfect view really make me calm. I love the garden. It's like a home to me. I close my eyes and started flashing back my memories together with Don.

"Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me 

But bear this mind it was meant to be 

And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks

And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile

You've never loved your stomach or your thighs 

The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine 

But I'll love them endlessly 

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth 

But if I do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to 

I'm in love with you and all these little things"

Don sang 'Little Things' from One Direction. His beautiful voice keep on ringing in my ears up till now. He has an amazing voice. The way he play the guitar and sing just the best thing ever. I just miss all those wonderful memories that we had together. Tears began welling up in my eyes. I tried to hold on but failed. It went down my cheek.  

"Hey Beth." Zac's voice appeared of nowhere.
I was shocked. I open my eyes. It was Zac. I wiped away my tears and fake a smile.

"Oh hi Zac. You startled me man."

"Oppss. I'm sorry. I didnt mean to do that." Zac apologize showing his puppy eyes.

"It's okay." I smiled, looking at somewhere else. I dont dare to look at his eyes. It reminds me of Don.

"Are your crying?"

I shook my head.

"Beth...Look at me now. Look." he pull my face and wiped my excess tears.

"I'm okay Zac. I'm fine. So how are you?" I tried to change the subject.

"Dont try to change the subject. Now tell me what happen? Okay how about we go to starbucks and then you can share it with me. Dont worry, my treat" he smile,showing his white teeth.

He grabbed my hand and dragged me to the nearest Starbuck shop.

Oh gosh. Why Zac? Why you have to do this to me? You remind me of Don. He used to bring  me to starbucks whenever i'm feeling down. I really miss Don. And then you are like here behaving like Don, which really not helping me to feel better.

He gently let go of my hand and went to the counter.

"I would like to have Iced White ..oh hold on" he paused

"What drink would you like to have Beth?" he asked politely.

"Cotton candy frap would be enough."

"Okay I would like to have iced white chocalate mocha and one cotton candy frap please."

"Your orders are coming up sir" the cashier replied

What? Iced white chocalate mocha? Don used to order that too. Arghh. Why both of them have the same characteristic? Oh god! Why must it be coincidence? And why must they happen to be in my life?

He brought the two drinks to the table outside. He sat down opposite me.

"Here's your drink."

"Thanks alot man!"

"So let's back to our previous topic. Why did you cry just now?"

Oh god. He still remember. What am i going to answer now? No way i am going to tell him about Don.

"Trust me. I'm okay. Please dont ask me anymore. Just leave me alone."

I stood up and went away leaving him alone.

"Wait Beth. Hold on"

I ignore him but then he was too fast. He grabbed my hand and pulled me close to his chest. His perfume was strong. I was speechless. I look him in the eyes. His light brown beautiful eyes. He started patting my head and slowly touching my hair gentely while staring at me. It was magical. I felt different when i'm with him. He went near my face. I was nervous. I began to close my eyes. I'm terrified.

"Hey Beth. No matter what happen, You are still beautiful as always. And I really dont want to see any tears flowing down your cheek anymore. I'm here for you." he whisper.

After a few seconds,I open my eyes and found out that he was gone. I look around. No sign of him. I dragged myself home slowly.

ZAC

She opened her eyes and looked around. I was hidding behind the pillar. I dont dare to come closer to her. I'm scared that she's going to scold me again.

Oh why Beth? Why is it so hard for you to believe me? I will be there for you.. Dont worry. I dont know why but i felt that you are like my own best friend which i know for a long time. I felt different when i'm with you. I can just be myself. You are different from others girls in my school. You are like one of kind. You're special. Even though you got that beautiful smile, it seems to be a fake one. I can feel that. You are like forcing yourself to smile just to make me feel better. But now. I felt what you felt Beth.Why you have to do this to yourself? I really hope that you can accept me as someone who can always lend his listening ears.

I went back home after Beth left.