I Couldn't Protect You (Levi x Reader)

Chapter 38

It all went by in slow motion. She didn't know what was happening. She had closed her eyes tightly, awaiting death.

This is the end huh?

She could feel the tears in her eyes. She was never able to even live long enough to be proud of herself with what she had done. {Name} all this time had criticized herself in every aspect. She had always blamed herself for everything, she still did, which made this whole situation upsetting.

She would die thinking that she was the problem, and not what she really was.

The answer.

Of course she never thought that way about herself. Others did though. She would never agree with them, she didn't have the capability too. She lacked self esteem.

She closed her eyes tighter, not wanting to start crying. The only thing she could hear were a bunch of bangs and wails of pain.

Something must've gone wrong.

She clenched her fists and she felt her heart stop. Images flashed through her mind.

Is this what they mean by you life flashing before your eyes?

They weren't good images though.

She could see Maeko. Oh, how much she missed her. The fact that they weren't even blood related had messed her up, and she couldn't even accept that her father killed both her mother, and Maeko's. It was cruel.

{Name} felt a sting in her heart as she saw her little sister dead, on her lap. The tears in her eyes, the lifeless skin of Maeko, cold and pale. She couldn't take it, she could feel more emotions erupting quickly.

'Lay me under the stars.'

That promise. That promise. She could remember it like a distant memory, she forgot about it till now.

The dead face of her little sister had haunted {Name}'s dreams. She couldn't even think clearly, the only think she saw was her sister. Her sister could have survived.

If only {Name} has gotten there quick enough. If she got there, any faster, her sister would be beside her. Her sister would have been able to come to the surface, while alive. She was never able to do that.

{Name} could remember the talks she would have with Ace and Maeko. They would talk about their dreams often, and Maeko's was always about the surface. She always talked with enthusiasm about oceans and stars and the grass. {Name} didn't even know how she could have gotten the information about these so called 'oceans.' She had never heard of them herself.

Maeko was always happy when talking about going to the surface. Her innocent eyes would glow in excitement, even in the worst of situations, Maeko was always able to think positively. Always thinking about her dream.

Even while starving and stealing and living without parents, or a home they could go back to, she was always happy. {Name} would often be jealous of Maeko. Maeko was always the one who made the twins think positively.

Think about their dreams, their futures. Maeko gave them hope, without her, they would have never been able to move on after her death. Maeko taught them to always move on, always move on to the future. Run towards your dreams, she would say with the largest smile. Even with the dirt and scratches and scars covering her body, all the pain she experienced, she never forgot about her goals. About her siblings.