Two Loners Find Love (Phan and Kickthesticks)

TRIGGER WARNING

A/N:Uhhhh this is gonna be really hard to write.

Trigger warning! Self harm and um...I guess you could call it almost death? Yeah.I'll call it that.

Anyways....on with the chapter. Oh and in case you're wondering,Dan is still living with his mom and so is Phil.

Dan's POV:

I nervously ask Phil the question I've been thinking about for a while now. "Phil?" "Hmm?"

"I kind of wanted to ask you if you want to tell your mum about...us?" Phil pauses for a second,looking deep in thought. He finally replies,looking scared and excited at the same time. "Yeah. I do. If it goes wrong,will you ask your mum if I can stay here until I have enough money to buy a flat?" I smile reassuringly at him and kiss him on the nose "Of course,I'll always be there for you." Phil blushes and then asks "Will you come with me?I'll need support if it goes wrong." I chuckle and say "Of course,why wouldn't I?" and then "Well,what are we waiting for? Let's go!" Phil runs downstairs,with me behind him,and then grabs his car keys off the kitchen counter. (A/N:Let's say Phil's mum's house is fifteen minutes away)

~Time skip pulling into driveway~

Dan's POV:

We finally pull into Phil's mum's driveway after fifteen minutes of anticipation (which,by the way,was killing me) and Phil turns off the car and gets out.I do the same except for the turning off the car part. Phil tells me not to bother walking,so we just walk in. We find Phil's mum

in the kitchen making tea. Phil clears his throat and his mum turns around and smiles at him,but when she sees me her smile fades a little. "Well,sit down,do you want some tea?" Phil and I gladly except and we all sit on the couch,holding our cups of tea. "So what brings you here,at 8 o' clock in the morning?" Phil looks really nervous,so I look into his eyes and nod. Phil begins talking "Well,you see mum,I'm gay and in a relationship with Dan." His mum looks shocked and then she gives us the biggest fake smile I've ever seen. "Hold on a minute,I'll be right back." she says and then goes upstairs. After a few minutes I hear drawers opening and then a really loud crash. She comes back downstairs and then starts yelling. "How could you betray me like that?!!! I raised you,with your best interests in mind,taught you not to sin,tried to find you a nice pretty girl that you would some day marry and what do you do? You wouldn't have any of it from the start!! You are such a disgrace!! I'll not have you,you disgrace to humankind,I'll not have you living under my roof!" Phil looks shocked and his mum keeps going. "I'll have you know you're no son of mine! I threw all your books,notebooks,clothes and straighteners out the window. You have today to get the rest of your stuff and get out!" Phil looked like he was about to cry and then he yelled "I don't need the rest of my stuff you sorry excuse for a mother! Go be a bitch elsewhere!" His mum looked taken aback for a second and then she picked up a cross from the coffee table and yelled "Go burn in hell you filthy piece of shit!I hope you die from AIDS you fucking faggot!" and then ran into what I assumed was her room. Phil now had tears streaming down his face and I led him outside,rubbing his back and whispering soothing words into his ear. I told him to stay in the car while I got his stuff from the front yard. When I was done getting his stuff,I put it in the trunk of the car. I then got into the car and Phil started driving.The car ride was dead silent and when we got to my mum's flat,I told Phil to wait in the car once again,while I ask her if Phil can stay with us for a while. He nods his head and smiles weakly. When I get into the flat,I spot my mum passed out on the couch and I knew it was a lost cause. I sigh and go outside again. I open the car door and say "She was passed out on the couch Phil,I'm sorry." Phil replies with a smile that I can tell is fake; "It's okay Dan,I'll just stay over at a friend's house.It's not a big deal." I sigh and say "Okay,I love you and we'll find a flat of our own soon,okay" He then nods and says "I love you too Dan" I kiss him and then run into the flat and up to my room,jumping onto my bed face first and screaming into my pillow.

Phil's POV:

I buckle my seat belt and start the car,driving to the park I always go to when my mum is being a bitch for peace and quiet.I park and sigh heavily. If only Dan knew that "stay at a friends house" is code for "sleeping on a park bench". I take some warm clothes and a blanket and pillow out of the trunk and change into the clothes in the car. It's not quite dark yet so I pull out my phone and go on various social media sites until I'm tired. When I'm ready for bed I wrap myself in my blanket and put my head on my pillow. I slowly fall into a peaceful,deep sleep.

Dan's POV:

After I'm done screaming into my pillow,I start thinking. (A/N:In bold are Dan's thoughts)

If I wasn't gay,this would've never happened.

If I didn't talk to Phil,this wouldn't have happened

I'm such a failure.

I'm worthless.

How did I ever believe I deserved someone as amazing as Phil?(A/N:Pun not intended hehe...amazing Phil...maybe pun is intended)

Before I knew what I was doing,I began walking to a nearby art store. On the way,I saw who looked exactly like Phil,sleeping on a park bench.

In fact,as I walked closer,I realized,that IS Phil. Another reason why I should cut. I continued walking to the art store. When I got there,I bought a whole box of blades.The cashier looked at me questioningly,but I just shrugged her off.On the receipt,I saw "Hey. I'm Erika. I know you aren't using those for art,and I beg you not to.But that won't help,so I'm giving you my number-in case you ever need someone to talk to. *insert number here*-Erika" I smiled at her as I walked out of the door. She smiled back and waved. When I got home,I went into my bedroom,turned on the light,went into my bathroom,did the same,and closed both doors. (A/N:It's now 8 AM.) I started cutting my right

arm1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20 and did the same to my stomach,thighs,and hips. I looked down at my cuts as they bled. I figured it's going to be a lot of work to clean my blood off my floor so I get up and fill the bathtub with water. I begin to feel a bit faint as I lower myself into the bathtub full of water. I think nothing of it and I sink underwater,think for a few minutes,and then drift off into a light sleep. (A/N:The water isn't deep enough to drown in so yeah)

Phil's POV:

I wake with a start. I think it's because someone is poking me repeatedly. I open my eyes and I see a little boy in front of me. he says "Oh finally,you're awake. Can I eat lunch on the bench? Please?" I mumble "Yeah,sure." and get off the bench and into my car.I decide that I'm going to check on Dan,make sure he hasn't done anything stupid like murdering his mum because she's being a twat.

~Time skip at Dan's flat~

I walk in the door and I immediately have a weird feeling in my stomach about Dan. His mum is still passed out on the couch and everything's normal in the living room and kitchen. I climb the stairs and the feeling becomes stronger. I go into his room and I hear water running. I think that maybe Dan's taking a bath,but then there's nothing but silence. I try the door,it isn't locked.I find Dan naked in the bathtub (A/N: ;) but this isn't the time :( ) With cuts all over his body,his hips,his arms,his thighs. They were all bleeding profusely.