(Matts p.o.v)
Theyve been in the hospital for a little over a month now. Trevor is in and out of consciousness. He'll be awake and well for a few days, he usually cant get up and walk around, but today, he was actually able to get out of bed. the doctor said thats a good sign. They dont even know whats wrong with him. Jordan is still in a coma. Shes able to hear us and everything, but she cant respond. Today theyre going to do a test to see if she remembers anything. Trevors awake today, so theyre going to bring him in and let him talk to her. Its been rough being in the hospital 24/7, but Ski is usually here, and she keeps me company. I wish she wasnt married though. I like her. A lot. And I have no idea what im going to do about it.
(jordans p.o.v)
I feel trapped. Like im in a pitch black room strapped down. I can hear everything, and feel when some touches me, but I cant see them, or respond. I want to scream, and let someone know im here. I hear shuffling in the room as people walk towards me.
"We're going to test something out today Trevor" A girl says. The name trevor sounds so familiar, but I cant place where I know that name from. "Youre going to start off by saying your full name, then tell her some things about you, then youre going to tell her how you guys know eachother, then how you met. And anyother memories you have together. If she remembers you, her heart rate will go up. or if shes in panic of not remembering anything youre telling her, then it might go up too. but theyre are ways we can tell the different heart rates to see if she remembers you or not. But no matter what, dont stop talking " (a/n im not ecen sure if this is possible, but go along with it cx )
"My names Trevor Micheal Wentworth. Im in a band, Our last night" thats were I knew the name from. My favorite band! "I live in LA with you in your apartment. Youre my girlfriend, the mother of our beautiful daughter, Katarina Lynn Wentworth" no, I cant be dating him. those were dreams. they had to be. And to have a kid with him? this cant be right. ive never even met him in person.
"Her heart rate is going up. Just keep talking trevor. " The lady said again.
"We met at warped tour, and you bumped into me, spilling your drink alll over me" he let out a small chuckle. " You watched me main stage that day. I eventually got the balls to ask you out, and I sang mirrors to you and stage" no, that i was a dream. i remember it being a dream. "You stayed in my bus the rest of warped tour. Then when we got back we went to Disney land because youve never been" he takes a deep breath and I feel him grab my hand. "I eventually just moved in with you. we always wake eachother up with pranks. I splashed water on your face one morning to wake you up. Youve pushed me off the bed. Jordan, please wake up. I need you. I know you can hear. Katarina needs you. I love you Jordan.. I - I " he lifts my hand up and holds it to his face. I felt something wet dripping on my hand and I then realized he was crying. i remember dreaming about dating him. But ive never been pregnant. " You should see Katarina. She looks like you. Has my eyes, your nose. and smile. Shes beautiful" i heard a baby cry, and he let go of my hand. I so badly want to scream, and tell him im here. tell someone im here. I want to talk to him, and tell him that im here. even if i know that none of that stuff happened, i need someone to know im here. I tried to scream, but nothing came out, I didnt even move.
"We need some time to study her heart rate, but we will get back to you as soon as we can." there was suffling of feet and papers, then a door closing. And with that, I was all alone, in the darkness, again.
(trevors p.o.v)
I started to cry as I left the room with katarina. I just wanted to go home with her and our baby girl. Matt took Katarina from my arms and handed her to Ski.
"She'll wake up soon, im sure of it" matt said as he tried to pull me into a hug. I pushed him away amd walked down the hall.
"You dont know that! what if she never wakes up?! what if she doesnt even remember me?!?" i tried to not scream, but people looked at us.
"She will trevor. you just need to belive she will" woody said as he walked in.
"Its hard when its been over a month" I said throwing my hands up. I walked out of the hospital, with them calling after me. no. I just need to be alone right now.
(skis p.o.v)
ive been coming to the hospital almost everyday since andy went back on tour. Hes been gone for almost 3 weeks now. yes he had to go on tour after Sally was born, but the tour was already planned and I forced him to go. The BVbarmy needs him. some nights ill sleep here. Matt and I have gotten really close lately. he makes being in the hospital bearable. Hes sweet. He always bring me coffee and donuts, to keep me awake and helps take care of katarina when Trevor is 'asleep'. what are you saying Ski? you love Andy. you cant be thinking about Matt like that. I sighed and walked into Jordans room with the now sleeping Katarina. I layed her down in the bassinet they had in there and sat by jordan.
"Hey Jordan. its ski. Sorry i havent came in and talked to you since you first got in here. ive been busy helping with Katarina amd taking care of sally. but they said since we're bestfriends, i should talk to you, and im not even sure if you rememeber me, But its been hard without Andy. Sally and katarina are practically bestfriends" I laughed a little and looked down at my hands "But I need to confess something to you.. I caught myself thinking about matt. and not in the way that I should be thinking about him..I cant have any sort of feelings for him. I love andy. I will always love andy." Sally started to cry. i sighed and got up. "I have to go take care of sally. Ill come talk to you when I can. " I picked sally up and walked out if the room. I ran right into Matt and he smiled.
"Hey there" he said and started walking with me.
"uhh hey" I smiled and walked into the room where all my stuff was.
"How are you? with Jordan and everything?" he asked and sat in a chair.
"Uh, im dealing. Shes my bestfriend. Its hard to not be upset about. I kinda need her right now." I said and layed sally on the changing table.
"Yea, thats how I feel when Trevors out."
"The only difference is he wakes up every now and again. Jordan hasnt." I said.
"Thats true. But hey. Do you wanna go get some food? get out of this hospital, and eat something other then this horrible hospital food" he let out a nervous chuckle. oh no, matt. Dont do this. please.
"I would, but who would watch Sally?" I asled, hoping he didnt have an answer.
"Woody loves kids, we'll leave her with him." I sighed. might as well go.
(Matts p.o.v)
Im surprised I even got the guts to ask Ski to dinner. And she said yes. I know shes with andy, but hes not here to comfort her. I am.
"So where do you wanna go?" I asked as I started the car.
"Uhm I dont really care" she smiled. Her smile always made me smile.
"How about chilis? 2 for 20 deal? " I asked.
"Yea, sure." she said, and looked out the window. Tonights going to be a loooong night. But at least im givin in a shot. May be a long shot, but its better then sitting on my ass and doing nothing.
(Jordans p.o.v)
I hate not being able to talk to everyone. this is driving me insane. I want to scream and pull my hair out. Its like theres a constant pressure on my chest. Im alone. Although, Ski, Keira, Trevor and everyone else from Our Last Night always make me feel less alone. Even though I dont remember 95% of what theyre saying. Some things I find hard to believe. Like me having a baby? Thats hard for me to believe. And Ski having a baby? She never wanted kids. Ever.
(Skis p.o.v)
We arrived back at the hospital. We've only been gone and hour, and it felt like forever. Matt likes me. A lot. And I have no idea what to do about it because I have no idea how I feel about it. I walked ahead of Matt, trying to avoid more socializing with him. Dinner was more then I needed. I walked into the room that I usually stay in, and tim and woody were standing there, one with katarina, the other with Sally.
"You guys are back. Here, take your daughter. Careful though. I just got her to fall asleep" Tim said, while handing me Sally. Matt walked in and woody handed him katarina. Tim and woody left, giving Matt a weird look. I set Sally in her bassinet, and Matt put Katarina in hers.
"Listen, Ski. Im sure you already know, but I really like you. and I know youre with Andy, but I need to do this" He started walking towards me and I slowly backed up, untill my back hit the wall.
"Matt, you cant kiss me.." I said softly, turning my head away
"I just need to do this once. then I need you to tell me how it felt. And be honest with yourself Ski. " He grabbed my chin softly and brough his lips to mine. Honesly, it felt nice. But it wasnt right. It didnt feel right. I pushed on matts chest untill he pulled away. "So how did the feel Ski?" he smirked and shook my head.
"I need to go" I wispered, and walked out. What I am supposed to do? I technically just cheated in andy. How am I supposed to tell him that? I walked out of the hospital, and went to the smoking area. I havent smoked in almost a year, but I need one now. Bad. I sat on the bench, and some guy sitting next to me asked if I need one. I nodded, and he handed one to me. As I took my first drag, tears spilled down my face. I cant lose Andy. I put my face in my hands and just cried.
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a/n
ooooh my goodness guys.
im so sorry I took forever to update. I havent been in the mood. Next chapter with probably be more about Keira and kellin, and how theyre all doing. but theres gonna be A LOT of stuff happening in the next few chapters, so stay tuned lovelies (:
