The Recurring Dreams

Shitty Day

I had a rough day... So I tried to wrote my emotions. The past 2weeks have been emotional roller coasters and I'm just so ready for summer. Extra time with my friends in college, stargazing, road trips, and long talks about problems.

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I don't know why

But I'm starting to cry

The dams break free

And I can no longer see

The innocence I once had

Now that it's out

I can only scream and shout

My anger rushes

My depression crushes

The emotions rise

Like the tide

They try to console

But gone is my soul

It's gone with the wind

And I guess I can't win

The daily struggle

The shard is sweet

On my wrist and feet

The edges glide

And I look for ways to hide

The thin red lines

The shower, it stings

I smile at what it brings

The flood of joy

That comes when I destroy

This skin that once was new

I always liked marks

That sang like larks

When I glanced at arms

That had scar farms

Swirling over the skin

They looked so pretty

Never looking gritty

I found out how to make them

But realized they weren't a gem

I tried not to

They soon found a way

To grace my body and stay

It's easier said than done

To stop what I've begun

It is worse each time

Burns fade faster

They are my new master

My go to when things are bad

Or when the world is particularly sad

They blister, they peel, leave behind a memory.

I try to stop

But can only swap.

For a boy, a test, a horrible day

My skin has to pay

I don't want to

It controls me

I want to be free.