When I got home, I rushed to my room. I threw all my purchased items on the ground. After I closed my door, I put my head beside it. I tried to relax. This girl is my life, and she knows but doesn't care, So, why should I? I really don't want to..it's just, I don't know. I got out of today's attire and wore some nightwear. After I took off my glasses, I put on the sunglasses Kevin got me. I left them on as I tried to get to sleep. I didn't want to be the same guy anymore; I welcomed sleep after hours of just staring at my tracfone lighting up on the counter.
~~
After I woke up, I decided to throw myself a pity party. I felt like my chest was ripped apart. "Kevin wouldn't want to cry. He would be strong." I clenched my fist. I really upset myself; I mean I couldn't play sports and I was definitely not social. But then again, what happened to only caring for someone who likes you for who you are? I couldn't help it though who would want a chess playing, school loving, grammar using nerd who can't defend himself when he's being bullied anyway?
After the sadness drained my body, anger took over. I found the shades Kevin got me when he wanted me to give up my glasses on the bedside table. Mom must have put it there when I was asleep. It's time for a change. I was taking out my new phone out of its box. I threw the manual away not bothering to read it.
'You're being ridiculous!'
I clenched my tracfone and threw it away as well not bothering to see how many missed calls I received. I programmed Kevin's number into this new device of mine.
'It'll never happen!'
Her words struck my heart and left it shattered. It was funny how it didn't stop them from leaving my mind until my door was slammed open with a fuming Bla- girl on the other side. Now names are a challenge?
"What? No hi?" I was putting my phone in my workout bag that I recently just bought. "When'd you get a new phone?" She was the only one talking while I grabbed the shades and put them on. My back still towards Blaine. "Excuse me! You have been ignoring my calls and texts, and you're acting like I'm not even in the room!"
I put my headphones in there as well, getting ready to meet up at Kevin's house to start syncing music into my iPhone to help me zone out and work on actually working out. After I filled up the bag, I made my way out.
"You're going to your girlfriend."
I looked back at her as I noticed it wasn't a question but a statement and saw her hang her head. 'It was part of the plan.'
"There's no point sticking around here." I was done being the only one that suffered not even understanding why she thought I had a secret girlfriend anyway.
Kevin's going to teach me how to work out.. I wanted to say to ease her nerves, but they were left as thoughts as I walked out.
I ran down the stairs and out the door. I dialed Kevin. He picked up shortly. "Come pick me up at the park." I didn't want to be around when Blaine came out.
~~
"I find it hard to believe you're dumping Blaine. I have to admit I was along with everyone else who thought she would do it." He joked. He was on a roll today.
"We were never together." I spoke through clenched teeth.
"Yeah, what's she going to do with a nerd anyway?" Jesse said with a grin.
"Thanks Jesse, I almost forgot you were in the car." I spoke with such sarcasm, which at this moment, I didn't care I was using towards a jock. He was sitting in the back while I took the passenger-seat.
"Somebody's moody."
I blew out as I looked at my shades as Kevin calls them.
"Somebody's alright. I'm fine!" I said as I folded my arms. "Let's just get this lesson over with."
"Well we need to teach you the basics first."
"You make it sound like there's a rulebook or something." I turned my view out the window glaring how there were plenty of couples.
"Well there are definitely things bros should never do to another bro like Jesse and I; I would never take his girl and the same applies to him without saying." I tapped on the glass for the shades and looked at them as if they had all the answers that I wanted.
"Am I considered a bro?" I saw Kevin wink at Jesse from the corner of my eye.
"Not yet." Jesse chuckled at Kevin's reply.
A few minutes of silence went by. I didn't want to ruin the peace but there was a question that kept twitching the back of my mind.
"How do you make people think you don't care?"
"That's one you should be able to answer; how long have you been bullied and not really cared about it?" Jesse answered my question as if the answer was as clear as ice.
"No as in how do you make it seem like you don't care about someone when you do?"
"Ah so this is where girls come in, especially Blaine."
"Just nevermind, who cares about them anyway." I put back on the 'shades'; it seems to hide me from the world, where were they in freshman year?
"Don't worry Alan, Kevin and I got a plan." Jesse put in as he looked too excited. Now I'm starting to think there's something everlasting in that alcohol everyone seems to take in.
"And that's a good thing? You make it sound like you guys are Einsteins or something." I grumbled. My mind drifted to Blaine, and I immediately dismissed it focusing on what Kevin was drilling into my mind.
"Don't worry my bitter friend, we're gonna make you irresistible."
"Am I the only one that thought that sounded weird?" Oh please, how much more different could I turn out?
"You wanna talk about women?" Jesse said with a grin at me.
"Uh..I'm not sure." I said.
"Yes it is true that girls can be confusing as- Kevin, higher this song." Kevin turned up the radio with an amused smile. "Anyways, yes girls, there's just things about them that you have to understand."
"This is true." Kevin said sarcastically.
"Alan, you already got Blaine, you just have to move yourself away from the friend-zone."
"The friend-zone? What's wrong with having girls as friends?" At this both Kevin and Jesse looked at me with the most serious expression I've ever seen on them. "Dude, just focus on the road." I told Kevin, the distracted driver.
"You would want to be Blaine's friend forever?" I opened my mouth to speak, but Jesse continued, "Yes it's okay to be a girl's friend at first but the friend-zone is a horrible place. It's where girls consider you one of them." Jesse shuddered. I wanted to say it doesn't sound that bad, but I didn't want to take my chances of them staring at me again.
"Well how do you get out of the friend zone then?"
"You can always use the info you learned from being in the friend-zone to be the perfect guy, but she'll think you're still trying to be her best friend." Kevin explained.
"And she'll start with her perfect expectations, yuck." Jesse added.
"So what do you do then?" I said.
"Show her she's different yet don't make her think she can do whatever she wants." Kevin said.
"Take her out on dates, and pay for all the meals no complaints." Jesse said crossing his arms.
"Act cool, but not cool enough to make her think you're too full of yourself." Kevin added.
"What do you mean act cool?" I wondered.
"Like don't go blabbing about boring stuff like physics and whatnot unless she's a physics babe." Jesse answered. "Don't seem too eager for her attention because no one likes someone too needy." Jesse shook his head.
"Treat a girl with respect-" Kevin started.
"-But also be bad-" Jesse continued.
"Just be yourself-" Kevin said just as Jesse said "Just don't be yourself." Silence flew for a few seconds as we all started to laugh.
"So basically I'm doomed?" I said with a chuckle regardless of the current situation.
"Definitely." They both said with amused smiles.
"Nah, but to me, it seems like Blaine likes you, even if it is a little, you guys weren't ever just the best friend bunch, well that's just if you ask me." Kevin said.
"True, true." Jesse said as he nodded.
"Yeah right," I couldn't help but mutter.
