The Rants of a Lonely Teenager

Apologies

I'm sorry. I'm really, truly sorry. I don't think that words can express how sorry I am.

1 - I'm sorry for constantly snapping at you. You don't deserve it. I don't deserve how you still love me despite all that. I'm sorry that you're stuck with a sister like me.

2 - I'm sorry for making fun of you for something I do too. It was so hypocritical of me and I hate the fact that I fell to peer pressure so easily. The thing I hate the most however, is that if I were in your situation I wouldn't've been able to handle it. I hope you did.

3 - I'm sorry for ignoring you for so long. Some part of me deep down still believes you deserve it, and maybe you do, but it doesn't change the fact that I could've been the reason why you are this way. I know how much cutting all ties with you has been hard on me, and even though I know you probably couldn't care less that I did, I'm still sorry. Yes, you hurt me. I don't think I'll ever be able to completely trust someone again after what you did, but no one deserves to be completely ignored. I'll stop, I promise. Even though I know that means I'll get hurt by you again and again I'll stop. I can't keep on going this way, it's just not part of who I am.

4 - I'm sorry that we always fight. I don't think anything I do can change that, but I'm still sorry. I'm sorry for whatever I did that made you hate me at first glance, and I'm sorry that you have had to put up with me ever since then.

5 - I'm sorry to everyone that I have hurt and that I will hurt. You don't deserve it, and you shouldn't have put up with me for as long as you did.

6 - I'm the most sorry for what I've done to you. I love you more than anything or anyone in the world, and I'm sorry that you have to put up with the pathetic disappointment that is me. You deserve someone much better and hopefully you will find them. I know I'm a constant let down and you should stop trying to fix me. It will just result in more if your hard earned money lost because you wasted it on me. I'm sorry for my mood swings, my words and my actions. I'm sorry for everything.