Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero? Race issues were about who ran the fastest, war was only a card game. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knee, and good byes only meant untill tomorrow?
- (Y/N) view -
Another sleepless night, my bed and hair were a mess, looking myself in my bathroom mirror i saw my eyes were still red.
And we couldn't wait to grow up.
"I hate getting flash backs from things i don't want to remember" i told myself, i turned the shower on, locking my bathroom door and stepping into the warm water.
It almost felt like all my troubles were going down the drain, until i remembered why i cried last night.
- flash back-
Adrien and i ended up watched Marinette run away almost in tears, she had confest her love to Adrien, and for myself i held my tongue.
He stood there, i started shaking, until i shock almost scaring him from my loud voice.
" go after her, uoi should worry about your future instead of mine. I'll be fine knowing you're happy" i told him with a lager smile, he returned it and rushed off after Marinette.
I stood there grabbing the ends of my jacket sleeve, i pulled my hoody over my eyes as i felt my tears.
"(Y/N)?" Nathaniel said placing a hand on my back " what happened?"
"The thing with broken clocks is you can always tell exactly when they stopped ticking" i paused and took a sharp breath " with people it isn't so easy and sometimes you can't even tell they're broken" i turned to him with a smile as i broke down.
-flash back ends-
I placed my night wear into the washing basket on my way to opening my window, i stopped expecting a call or text from Adrien after everything that happened.
Leaning on my windowsill i let a small sigh " it's been over a year since then" i rubbed my forehead and looked to the sky.
Looking to my wrist i could still make out a few cuts, some were unseeable, others looked new, it had been half a year since it came to a end.
Grabbing my jacket, keys and phone i headed to the front door, putting my shoes on i left the apartment.
I stood outside my apartment and for once didn't know where to go, standing there i shock my head and started walking.
I stopped outside my old school, looking inside, i found no one there, walking into the middle of the school i looked around, i could feel my heart beating and the heat in my face.
"Do i still love him?" I questioned myself, sitting on one of the steps i watched over the court.
The image of Adrien fencing came to my mind, sitting here every friday after school, just to see him win all his matches.
I laughed when Marinette went looking for him and ended up calling him cute, i stopped laughing and looked to the old classroom.
Getting up, i made my way to the class room, the empty seats, the silence was a little off putting.
Walking to my chair i sat down in it, i smiled when i found out Nathaniel had a crush on Marinette, he would draw her almost everyday, and i got to watch him do so.
Looking to where Adrien sat i smiled, laying my head on my old desk i looked out the window and closed my eyes for a moment.
- Adrien's view-
Becoming a full time model was a little stressful, i waa thankful that Marinette was still at myside, having finished for the day i rushed to leave the area, i needed to get air.
I had my coat on and let out a small sigh, looking to my phone there wasn't any messages nor miss calls, rubbing the back of my neck i looked to my ring amd smiled a little.
Rushing to an ally way i transformed into Chat Noir for the first time in months, hawk moth was no long so Ladybug and myself wasn't needed.
-fash back-
As i rushed after Marinette i didn't get far before finding her beside the school building
"Mari, do you really love me?" I asked, i was taken back when she nodded her head
"But that doesn't matter now" she said smiling to me "i was able to tell you how i felt but, (Y/N) wasn't able to"
"What do you mean?" I asked, but Alya only spoke while looking to me.
"You stupid boy. If only you knew how much she loved you. How much she cared. How much she tired"
I stood there, my eyes wide as i went to turn around Nino stopped me, he shock his head, the sound of crying came from inside the school and i knew it came from a heartbroken girl.
-flash back ends-
As i stood onto of the school roof i looked to the sky, i closed my eyes feeling the wind against my face, i soon sat down and sighed.
Hearing a ring tone i looked around only to see (Y/N) rushing out of thw class room, she even jumpped the last three steps.
Her (E/C) eyes looked a little empty, the (H/C) in her hair looked faded, her style seemed rushed, watching her running i followed behind.
Arriving at a local hospital i stopped a few roofs away, as i held my fist over my heart as i looked away.
What seemed like hours she came out, almost like a zombie, she held a small bag in her arms and seemed to just head home.
- (Y/N) view-
Opening my door to my apartment i felt the emptyness hitting me, removing my shoes and jacket i gradded a shot glass and a bottle of vodka, walked to my bedroom i opened the window and sat below it and started having a few shots.
To the left of me was my shot glass and my right was the vodka bottle, the sun had started going down, i pulled my knees to my chest and started crying.
-at the hospital-
"Miss, please be clam" a nurses said
"Where is she!? Mum?! Mum!" I screamed and screamed, only to have a doctor walk out shacking his head, the nurses moved away and i rushed into the room.
There she was, she i fell to my knees next to her bed and held her hand, i felt my heartbreaking but i didn't cry.
After a few hours the doctor came in with a small bag that was my mothers and once i got that i left.
-at home-
I felt a hand on my shoulder, i knew who it was, the leather feeling gave it away.
"Drinking your feelings away?" He asked, i nodded "I'm sorry for what has happened"
He sat with me even when his time was up, i was already tipsy so i didn't care who he was.
" (Y/N) you should stop drinking" he said while looking at the half empty bottle.
"I know i should but, it feels so good" i told him my head was against my wall looking to my ceiling.
I grabbed the bottle off him i stood up and pointed my finger at him " as you get older, you really understand more about why people drink the night away, smoke their lungs black or throw themselves off building" i said as i took the head of the bottle to my lips and started drinking the rest.
" (Y/N)!" Adrien yelled as he went to grab the bottle from me.
"I was find until i meet you!" I yelled back as he stopped, i dropped the now empty bottle, my face flushed.
"What?" He said looking at me confused.
"I always think of you before i fall asleep. The words you said, the way you looked. The things we laughed about, the silent monuments we shared. And when i dream, I'll dream of you. Because it's about you, it's always about you" i told him, was i confusing my love to him?
He just stood there, i did the same but shock my head as i sat at the end of my bed.
"Don't you get it? I chose you, over anyone else, i always fucking choose you" i cried, my emotions got the better of me as i started crying.
He sat next to me and pulled me into him, for a while he played with my hair until i sat up and looked at him.
I ended up drunkly kissing him, i felt him kiss me back and one thing lead to another.
- next day, Adrien's view-
I had woken up early this morning, looking to my side i smiled softly seeing (Y/N) cuddled into my chest, i played with her hair once again and kissed the top of it.
I let her sleep in as i made breakfast and a drink for her headache, and as i finished cooking i watched as she walked out of the bedroom bright red.
"Morning" i saod as she looked at me, he face went brighter as she started putting every thing together.
"D-did we, last night?" She asked as i nodded and smiled.
"Come on eat something and here" i handed her the drink and then gave her a small kiss on the lips as i grabbed my coat "I'll come by later tonight, see you then, sweetheart"
----- A/N -----
I am so sorry this took so long i open everything makes sense and i wanted to try something different, i used a few saying that i found and liked
