I wanted to live a different life. I wanted to be raised in a great family. One that doesn't argue about everything. One that can except me for who I am, not mold me into what they wanted me to be. I wanted to be one of those kids who has the latest new iPhone or the coolest clothes. Not one that has to be ashamed of what I'm using or wearing. I wanted to be popular. Not a lonely nerd. I wanted to be the first person you invite to all the parties. Instead I don't even get a pity invitation. I wanted to be a prize students. My social anxiety makes it hard for me to go to class. I wanted to be one of those kids who has a hilarious senior superlatives. No one knew that I exist, so I am not going to be on that page of the yearbook. I wanted to be an all star athlete. The one time I get my shot, I blew it for one stupid game that my team didn't even win. I wanted to have "The star couple" relationship. The person I love took her life. I wanted the perfect prom experience. I am not able to prom and my date is miles away from Massachusetts. I wanted to be a drummer. My ADHD wouldn't let me sit through the lessons.
I know that as you read this, your thinking that I just want all of guys and gals to feel bad for me. I don't want anyone to bad for me. One day when I didn't accept any of this, an older student in my school sat me down and we had a chat. She said "I hear that you want to change your life right? I nodded head and the she continued her speech. "Look kid you only get one life and you have to live it to the best ability. You have to deal with the challenges of life. If life was easy, then it wouldn't adapt us to the future. You would never know how resilient and responsible you are. Every achievement you gain would just be handed to you and never become independent. Challenges are made to make you rise higher, they were never designed to make your life hell. What I'm trying to say is you are the only person that controls your life, keep your head up and show them that you can roll with the punches." After those last words she got up and left. I never saw her after that day, and I never forgotten her words.
from that day and on, I made a vow that I will change my life and stop complaining. Life is going to be hard but I will show everyone that I am in control of MY LIFE. That is how I am going to continue life. And if you are the type of person who needs music to help you listen to the in media space on the top or the song on the bottom of the page
A/n:Thank you for reading this book! if you like this you should read my other book.
