I want a girlfriend or boyfriend soooooo bad. I thought I'd like being single, honestly. I don't, so. I'm so stressed out, because there's so much happening. I could reach out to friends, sure, but I always have this lingering fear that they don't actually like me. For some reason, I never had that with a s/o. Well, at the end of my last relationship, I did. I felt replaced, and we literally never talked. That's a story for another day, though. Or maybe one for never. I don't want to bother anyone with my insignificant problems. I just wish the things happening right now weren't happening. That sounds so lazy, I know. But it's so, so much. I know that I can't turn back now, I'm too late. I just wish there was someone to help me through. There is, I'm sure of it. But, like, I want to have someone who can wait for me after a long day, in whose arms I can collapse. It's way too much to ask, I know. I just don't know what to do. It's hard, but not as hard as anyone else's struggles. I'm whining, I know. It's just stressful. I try. A lot. I do my best, but my best isn't enough. I'm not enough. I know I'm repeating myself a lot, but that just shows how little my problems matter. I should stop complaining now, but this... helped, kind of. Thanks for reading, if you're still there. I doubt it.
Signed, E.
