To start something over is to begin again.
Simple logic, right?
I want to begin again & try to make myself happy. Easy, right?
My depression has been suppressed while all the memories are repressed. Unhealthy, right?
All that matters is I am 'sane' again, right?
I have lost my only friend; Depressing, right?
I am cowering away from who I am & trying to create someone who is not me. Pathic, right?
No one seems to care anymore. "At least she is not stuck in her room." Pretty lonely, right?
The thing is, I am lonely. I do not have anyone to turn to when I cry.
the thing is, I am pathetic. I am unhappy with putting myself out there but I am only doing so to appease my family.
The thing is, my life is depressing. The one friend who I had in my corner found better, healthier, & happier friends.
The thing is, I am not completely sane. How can I be if I am still drowning in my past?
The thing is, I know my mental state is unhealthy. I am too depressed to try to make my fake smiles become real.
The thing is, everything is too hard to accept or let go so I can move on.
The thing is, my life is anything but simple logic & I just feel like giving up instead of starting over.
To start something over is to begin again.
But where do I even start?
