Over the Banister

Surgery-Bella

I can't believe today's the day that Gavin might die. This surgery could end his life, although Gavin doesn't know that yet. He was the most amazing person I have ever got to meet. To bad I will probably never see him again. The orphanage called me yesterday and told me I would be pulled out of the hospital tomorrow and I don't have a say in it. I just wish I could say goodbye, but I just can't. It would be to hard for both of us, and it will be even harder if I let my feelings through while I say goodbye. I just really wish I didn't have to leave before he will wake up. But for now, I have to make his day special.

We bribed a nurse to put us both in wheelchairs so we could roam the halls together. We ended up ding ding ditching a doctor's office and putting salt in a nurse's water. We also sprayed water in the nurses face in place of a water game like water laser tag. When we got back to our room, Gavin had to be prepped for surgery. I wished him luck and hugged him for what felt like an eternity. I wanted to stay in that warm embrace for all of my life. The worse thought is that I will never feel it again. I don't want to leave. I want to stay with him forever. Even if I would get his number, I would be stripped of any way to reach him for protective reasons. As they wheeled him off into the distance of the hospital hall way that reeked of cleaning supplies and fake food, a hot tear dripped from my red eyes to my burning cheeks. As I waved goodbye for the last time, I could finally let myself be emotional and mourn the loss of a best friend. A real friend. Maybe even more than a friend. Either way, it doesn't even matter now. Bella and Gavin will never be a couple, and I need to accept it.