Introverted Hearts // Josh Dun

chapter fifteen :: glowing stars

this gif again bc i love it so much

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"What do you love?"

"Performing."

Josh and CJ were laying on their backs in her bed together. They were staring at the glow in the dark stars on her ceiling. The 1975 played in the backround to keep their thoughts occupied.

"Why?"

"It's exhilerating," Josh answered. "You know how people talk about natural highs?"

CJ nodded.

"That's mine," Josh said. "It's crazy to hear people cheer and sing to your songs."

"It sounds amazing."

"You should come." Josh suggested.

"Maybe you could get a video."

Josh was silent.

"I want to, Josh," CJ told him. "I really do, but you saw me at the christmas party. If I can't answer a question in front of a few other people, how can I stand in a big crowd?"

"I know," Josh shook his head. "I shouldn't have asked.. I just thought that maybe you would wanna be there. For moral support, y'know?"

"I do." CJ grabbed his hand and wrapped her pinky around his. "I will. One day. To infinity and beyond, right?"

Josh was hesitant, but let out a quiet, "Yeah."

"What else do you love?"

"Soft socks," Josh answered. "My mom used to stress the importance of soft socks, and I've loved them ever since."

"That's cute." CJ giggled.

"What about you?"

"Me?"

"What do you love?"

CJ sighed. "Lights, of course."

"Why?"

"Because when there's darkness, there's light."

"What else?"

"Jenna." CJ said. "She's always been there for me. She was the light in my darkness."

"When did you guys meet?"

"Freshmen year of college," CJ replied. "We were at the same party."

"And you just bumped into each other."

"Yeah," CJ sighed. "Something like that."

Josh wrapped his fingers around hers and pulled it to his chest, letting it rest over his heart.

"I love warm hands."

"I have sweaty hands." CJ replied with a light laugh.

"Yeah," Josh agreed. "And nubby finger nails."

"You're not supposed to agree." CJ laughed.

Jenna was woken up by violent coughing from the nameless girl next to her.

"It's okay." Jenna told the girl as she sat her up and patted her back.

Judging off the look on the girl's face, Jenna quickly rushed her to the bathroom and helped her hunch over the toilet.

Jenna rubbed the girl's back as the remnants from the previous night came out in the form of vomit.

"This is disgusting." CJ mumbled into the toilet bowl.