Dying is simple...if I disappear tomorrow no one of the world will notice that..It just getting worse..there's so much pain..you wanna know what is hurt?? Walking home and starting to cry before you come in..and when you arrive..laying in the floor and just crying for hours and hours...Because you feel so fucking alone..so fucking down...and you hurt yourself so much...you just need something to distract you but even you can't get up...how much I'm hurting..there's so much pain here on my heart..I want to die..I said many time I don't care but my eyes tell a different story..I feel so lonely...it's like I'm stuck in the middle of the ocean..and everyone is there laughing..smiling and having fun...and there's me drawing..sinking and silently screaming...and no one cares if she is crying at 2AM wishing to "DIE"...I need to feel alive..to make my feelings a cut..to feel the pain of my heart..I need a blade to make a cut...after few minutes..I still feel the pain of the blade piercing my skin..the blood is falling..and I'm just crying..I'm sick of crying...sooner or later I'm going to die cause all I want is to die just die..god you can't see me..I just want to die...sorry but there's nothing I can do...damn it hurts so much..
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Long Silence
Non-FictionI drowned under the waves of words that I wasn't saying...I was afraid to tell my story out loud but here I am writing this telling everything I felt... Started: 21/1/2018 Ended: 20/7/2018
