you are my Princess

Chapter 12

Jin's due date is next week. My son, he will be the beginning of my life with Jin. She has been noticing my secrets. I know she's tired of it. I want to tell her everything, but it's just hard. Next year I'll graduate and take over my dad's company.

I don't mind going into business. I've noticed im actually very good at it. When Hoseok is born I can take care of him and my princess. Give them everything they deserve and more. I know from experience I can't just buy him everything and act like everything is okay.

I will give my son what I never had an actual father. "Yoongi?"I turned around in my desk to look at jin. "Yeah princess something wrong?"I asked.

" Mr.Min turn around in your s—"I quickly interrupted. "Hey hey shhhh im trying to listen to my princess," I said turning back to her.

"Uh later," she said looking away shyly. I chuckled and turned back around I love her so much...It's going to be hard to tell her of all my shameful past. I hope to god she will continue loving me and stay with me.

Later on that day Jin and I sat together on the couch watching TV. She looks as beautiful as always I try to focus on that my beautiful girlfriend. not the burning in my throat I was craving it again I hated myself for it I hated myself for being so broken.

"Yoongi your staring" she giggled. "Yeah I am aren't I," I said. "So um earlier I wanted to know what have you been thinking about lately," She asked. "nothing don't worry about it I said.

"Yoongi why are you keeping secrets?" she blurted out minutes later. "What?"I asked. "You've been staring off and looking as if something's wrong why won't you tell me?" she asked. "I-Im not hiding any-"She interrupts.

"Don't lie to me" she yelled tears stream down her face. "Just tell me you don't want me "She sobbed. I grabbed her and pulled her gently into my lap. "Princess that is not it that's not it at all. I guess I should have told you sooner but I was so ashamed to admit I couldn't be perfect for you" I said softly rubbing her back.

"W-what is it" she stuttered. "A lot of things "I took a deep breath. "Everyone I've ever cared about has died or left...My real mom, My Sister, Jada, Liv, My brother" I said. "But you said your brother was—"I interrupted.

"I lied I'm sorry...Jin "I said hesitantly. "Yes Yoongi," she said looking up at me her eyes already filled with forgiveness. "Im an alcoholic," I said. Her eyes widen in shock, confusion and most of all disappointment. I broke my heart seeing her look at me in such a way.

"You are an alcoholic ?" she said slowly. Last month Jin had told me of her father he was to an alcoholic. That's another reason I didn't want to tell her. "Yes, I went to Rehab last year that's why no one ever saw me but once I started drinking the day...I was upset with you after seeing you with Namjoon
It's all coming back, harder this time and Jin im trying I am I haven't broken once and God it's so hard "I said tears threatening to fall.

"Why would you do that throw your life away cause a little something happened here and there" as she said these word I could see the regret the instant she realized what she said. "Yoongi I—"I sat her on the couch.

"Throw my life away Seokjin I never had one to begin with. Five years old my mother was gone She leaped off a cliff in front of me. A five-year-old kid and even then I kept my shit together, Then I had to deal with my father, Then My brother after getting married and having a baby girl died from cancer.

I tried to take care of me and my little sister protecting her from our parents "I said with a tear falling down my cheek. "And I couldn't fucking do it, because I couldn't stop them...My girlfriend and sister both were gone, I became depressed Liz and Emma tried to help and eventually I fell in love with Liz and I couldn't protect her and she got Multi personality disorder from constant abuse from her father, then Emma came along and I started to drink"I explained.

"Yoongi Im so—"I interrupted once more. "Let me finish, I woke up one day in Emma's bed and she told me we had sex and next thing you know she says Im the father of her baby I took full responsibility I bought her an apartment once her parents kicked her out I planned to take care of my baby...but I told her I didn't want to be in a relationship with her she threatens the baby...I stayed with her and did as she said, she had a miscarriage, in the end, she lied it wasn't even my baby"

By now I was fully crying. I felt so ashamed of myself. "I couldn't help it Jin I need a way out so I drank and drank until I forgot it got bad jin really bad I need it now nothing is wrong but I fucking want it so bad"I yelled crying harder into my hand.

Jin then threw her arms around her hugging me tightly "Im so sorry Yoongi I didn't know all of this I-Im so proud of you your so strong, I had a hard life to...and I couldn't fight for myself"She whispers. "I never fought for me Princess I fought for my family," I said

I wiped my eyes and looked at her "so who are you fighting for now?"She asked. "My family," I said. "Your... What do you mean" she asked. "My future wife and my son and I promise I'll try my very best will you still be—"this time I was interrupted by a kiss. I passionately kissed her back.

"I will never leave you Min yoongi and I can't wait to build a—our family," she said. I looked, No I admire my beautiful girlfriend. She will finally make everything that happened in my life okay..."I love you" I said kissing her hand.

"I love you too Yoongi," she said kissing my cheek. "I will love you forever Yoongi," she said and I swear my heart stopped for a moment. "I have already given you all of me my love no one else could be any better than my princess," I said. I will spend the rest of my life with this girl.