MY WORST FEARS (Completed)

CHAPTER 13

   A/N.     Dedicated to AReaderHasNoName. My full support when I'm down there, my Jackie. I love you girl.

               LAILA'S POV

"Do you have any idea the kind of sacrifice Don is making to love you? Who would love you, even though they have to leave for a long time? Do you know that your sister-“

My sister cut Mother off, yelling at the top of her lungs.

“Mother, stop it. Don't say anything anymore. Leave me and my sister alone. Leave my room with that asshole, now!"

Even though her hands were shaking, Jackie’s voice was crystal clear as she insulted my Mother for the first time in her life.

To my surprise, Mother and Don followed through with my sister’s demands.

My mother's words hit me like a punch. I never in my life thought my mum would ever utter such hurtful words to my face. To her, they might have been her just releasing her anger, but the true meaning of her words sank deep into my heart.

My entire being aches when I dwell on the previous conversation, but I must refocus my attention to my sister. She’s now shivering so badly, her knees are weakly knocking together. Jackie swayed side to side, so I quickly moved foreword to keep her steady. As soon as my fingers grazed Jackie’s shoulder, her head whipped around to face me.

Instead of seeing the illness though, all I saw was a darkness in her eyes, something I had never seen in anyone before. Her pupils  dilated, breathing heavily, almost panting. Cautiously peering into Jackie’s eyes, I noticed that they were clouded over, their usual onyx color now tainted with oily-looking pools of dark swirling ink.

This is not the same Jackie that I’ve lived with nearly every day of my life.

This Jackie was scaring me.

"Don't listen to her, Sis. She didn't mean anything by what she said. Mother’s probably just extremely angry. I’m sure that she will come apologizing to you sooner or later."

Jackie tried to reassure me, but I knew her so well. Jackie would jump through hoops to convince me otherwise, but I knew how much truth my mum's words held.

Mother meant every word that she had said, and she was probably ashamed of having me as her daughter as well.

My life had become a battle field. It was not easy having a boyfriend who could flirt with another girl in my presence. I couldn’t even look to my mother for support, since she refused to listen to me. Tania always complained about my style, even though i told her time and time again that I liked my style.

And then there was Hellzel, who made my life a living hell whenever I went to school...

"Don’t move an inch, I'll go get your medicine ", Jackie blurted out quickly, shuffling around to escape the covers of my bed.

"Why....why'd... ", I sniffled, grabbing onto my sister’s hand tightly as I turned towards her.

Taking a deep breath, I inquired "Why did you stand up for me? You've always made a point about being natural. What made you change your mind this time?"

Right away, Jackie sat down next to me, took both of my hands into hers and stated, "I don't believe in love, Lay, but if someone says he loves you he should accept you just the way you are. Nobody should feel obliged to change their physical appearance just to suit their partner's desires.” She pulled one leg onto the bed and remained in that position, regarding me with a purposeful look.

"If Don loves you, as he says, then he should not put conditions on his love. Love is not something that can be gambled with in such a way. However, if you love Don so much, then I can’t stop you. I will support you in this relationship until you realize what a jerk he is- and you will realize that, soon. But, you know what Lay? I love you so much and I can’t stand to see you hurt. I still don't understand why you love him so much. Don’s not worth your time, Sis. I hate him like hell", she pushed her black hair behind her shoulders. A tear escaped my eye but she quickly wiped it off.

"Don't cry, Sis. It hurts me to see you like this.” Then, Jackie pulled me into a tight embrace, her head resting on my quivering shoulders.

I was used to living in darkness. All my life, I always lived according to my mum's and dad's standards.

Mother always tried to reassure me, stating, “I don't want you to mess up your life, Laila. I'll take care of you.” Every mother has the best interest for their children at heart. Isn't that the truth?

And so I followed my mother's advice, attended day school, put more effort in my studies and passed all of my high school courses with flying colors. If my dad had been there, he would have been equally as proud.

I dated the guy my mum chose for me. My mom once told me, “I don't want you to live a poor life, my daughter. Love this man, obey him and he will provide everything that your dad failed to provide for you.”

I had always trusted in my mother’s choice. She’s one of the only people I’ve ever completely had faith in.

"My mother will never mislead me Jackie ", I said when she raised her chin and looked at me.

"But she's a bitch. You can't follow every single one of her senseless commands, Lay. You gotta start thinking for yourself.” My sister knocked on her head twice, contorting her face into a silly expression. Despite her attempts to make me laugh, I kept a straight face.

"Jackie, I saw how Don looked at h. I could clearly see the admiration in his eyes. She looked so perfect, especially with her flawless skin. And her breasts..." I grabbed my hair. I wanted to tear it all out, strand by strand.

At least that would distract me from the pain of my broken heart.

"Why can’t Don look at me the same way he regarded Rymana? He called her 'sweet girl'. He caressed her face and she smiled...",

God, it hurt so bad reliving that moment. I gasped in pain when I felt a sharp stab in my heart, and my sister looked concerned. That concern quickly turned to anger once she realized why I was hurting, though.

"Okay, that’s it! Stop this nonsense, Lay! You should be furious at him for disrespecting you in such a manner. He doesn't deserve you, Sis. He's such a hoe, and it’s about time you ditch him already!” she signed deeply.

"I am sure you can live without him in your life. Oh, and your breasts are perfect just the way they are. Don't listen to his stupid remarks."

A/N. Hey Fellas, am so sorry for the late update. I hope you bear with me loves. I missed you a lot.

I'm celebrating my birthday this month. Anyone else? Happy birthday.

Help me wish my fellow birthday mates a nice time celebrating their special days. I love you guys.