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Arron

Hindi rin naman nagtagal si Gian. He only stayed for two days in the Philippines at matapos ay umalis na rin dahil mayroon pa daw siyang pasok which I'm greatful for. Kahit na nagtaas siya sa akin ng white flag ay hindi ko pa rin naalis ang inis ko sa kanya. I think he's an arrogant ass, but that's nothing personal. I just hate his guts and I know that the feeling is mutual.

Fourth day na ngayon ni Allie sa hospital. Lagi akong nasa room niya at hindi siya iniiwan. Umuuwi lang ako kapag tapos na ang visiting hours which is at exactly 10PM. I wish I could stay the whole night para masamahan siya dahil natatakot ako na baka may mangyari sa oras na wala ako sa tabi niya.

Nakasama ko si Frannie sa pagbantay kay Allie kahapon. The two cousins were amusing to watch dahil katulad namin ni Allie ay nagbabangayan din sila. Mas matindi pa doon.

"Gusto ko nang umalis ng hospital. I hate this place." reklamo ni Allie at napangisi na lang ako. Para kasi siyang bata. Mas madalas na siyang magreklamo tungkol sa mga simpleng bagay nitong nakaraang mga araw. Like how she hates it kapag palagi siyang chine-check ng nurse, she hates taking meds, she hates waking up in a hospital. At marami pa siyang kinaiinisan.

Nagiging moody din siya but her parents say normal lang daw iyon since naiinip na si Allie sa hospital. Mas moody nga daw siya dati, they said Allie is handling it better than before now that I am here to support her. Hindi ko alam kung pinapagaan lang nila ang pakiramdam ko but it worked anyway.

"The doctor says you can't leave yet." sagot ko naman dito.

Ako ang naiwan kay Allie ngayon. Her mother went to their shop dahil nagkaroon ng kaunting problema pero babalik rind aw siya kaagad. Her father is in his office dahil may inaasikaso siyang mga papeles. Si Robbie naman ay pumapasok kaya tuwing uwian lang siya nakakapunta. I don't know where Frannie is pero sigurado naman ako na pupunta rin iyon para bumisita kay Allie maya-maya.

"We're just wasting our time here, Arron. Did you forget? You still owe me a date." she frowned and I flicked the tip of her nose with my finger.

"Pinapagaling ka nila, that's not wasting time. Mas mahalaga ang kalusugan mo kaysa sa date natin, so stop saying crap, okay?"Ngumuso si Allie at parang gusto pang makipagtalo.

"Pero-" I gave her a pointed look and she shuts up.

Kinuha ko ang kamay niya at sinimulan paglaruan ito. I love playing with her fingers. Bukod sa malambot at makinis ay sobrang feminine kasi ang kamay niya. It's girly compared to my hand kaya nakakatuwang paglaruan.

"Naniniwala ka ba sa Heaven and Hell?" nagsimula na naman ito sa pagsasalita. Another thing about a patient Allie is she's really talkative kapag nagustuhan niya. Marami siyang ikinukwento sa akin at marami naman akong natututunan sa kanya.

I love watching her talk about things that she feels strongly about. Kapag kasi nagkukwento siya tungkol sa bagay na gusto niya ay ibang klase ang liwanag na lumalabas mula sa mga mata niya. The way her lips angles into an upware curve, it calms my heart whenever she smiles.

"Of course, I do." ngumiti si Allie.

"Then do you believe in reincarnation?"

"Reincarnation?" kumunot ang noo ko. I think I've heard of that before. Back when I was in highschool, hindi ko lang masigurado kung sa araling panlipunan subject o sa religion. How would I know? Hindi naman ako nakikinig sa klase even before I was in college.

Just like how Allie's eyes spark whenever she loves the topic, it glimmered as she started talking about whatever reincarnation is.

"I read it somewhere. I heard it first when I was in highschool. Most prominent siya sa Hinduism at Buddhism but some other religions believe in that philosophical concept as well."

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"Really? What is it about?"

"Reincarnation is the rebirth of the soul to a new body. Sabi kasi nila, kaluluwa lang tayo na nakikitira sa isang katawan. Once our body dies, our soul goes to either heaven or hell. When your soul goes to heaven, you'll be given the chance to live in a new body with a new life without any memory of your past life."

"And you believe in that?"

"Yes." tumango-tango si Allie. Sinubukan kong wag tumawa but it really seemed absurd. Naniniwala ako na may kaluluwa ang lahat ng tao na nabubuhay sa mundong ito but I certainly don't believe that we're being reincarnated.

"You're laughing at me." sumimangot siya sa akin at napatigil naman ako sa pagtawa. I coughed to hide my smile dahil ayaw ko siyang mainis at baka sumpungin na naman siya.

"Sorry."

She glared at me. "It makes sense. Death is the end of all things but Heaven is the new beginning, that's why reincarnation might possibly be true."

"Okay. Sabihin nating totoo, then what happens next once you're reincarnated?"

She shrugged. "You get to live a new life pero hindi mo malalaman ang tungkol sa past life mo. You know-some said na when someone from your family dies, babalik at babalik rin ang soul na iyon. Hindi man as a member ng family but it could be as a friend or whatever that is close to your heart."

"You're such a weirdo." I told her with a happy smile and she just proudly beamed at me.

Kinabukasan ay na-discharge na si Allie from the hospital. Dumating si Tita kasama ang doctor and gave Allie the good news na puwede na siyang lumabas ng hospital, we just need to make sure na madala si Allie kapag may naramdaman siyang mali.

Tinatawagan lagi ni Dominic si Allie para kamustahin since he can't visit her dahil nasa Cebu pa rin siya with his family. It is also the reason kung bakit maiinis ako. I hate to say this pero kahit hindi ko maiwasan ang mainis ay hinahayaan ko na lang na mag-usap sila. Dominic told me himself, pinakawalan na niya si Allie and Allie loves me kaya wala ako dapat ikatakot.

I can't change the fact that she still loves Dominic. Hindi na katulad ng dati, pero alam kong may puwang pa rin si Dominic sa puso ni Allie. He's her first love after all.

When she's finally feeling okay, we went out a date. Pumunta kami sa cliff kung saan dinala ko na siya dati. It's not really a natural cliff pero parang ganoon na rin ang itsura ng lugar na iyon. I decided to go there since I promised to bring her there. And this time, hinintay namin ang sunset dahil yun ang gusto niya.

I asked her parents if she could stay the night sa bahay nila Mama. They agreed with a warning to not lock the door, si Allie ang kausap kaya tinawanan na lang sila ni Allie.

"Tahimik dito sa village ng Mama mo." sabi ni Allie.

Allie wanted to walk around the village kaya inaya niya ako. Medyo gabi na kaya madilim at wala na masyadong makita but it's nice to just walk around lalo na at maraming stars sa langit.

"Yup. Exactly the reason why my mom loves here. Gusto niya kasi somewhere peaceful. Away from the stressful world." hindi sumagot si Allie sa akin at matagal naging tahimik pero maya-maya ay nagsilat rin siya ulit.

"Pwede ko bang itanong ang nangyari sa Mom at Dad mo?"

Ngumiti ako. "My mom is my father's first love. Pero hindi mayaman si mom, this will be a bit cliché pero totoo. He was married to someone else dahil sa business-then years later, they realized they still love each other. They ended up making me kahit na alam ni Mama na may asawa na si Dad.

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