l o v i n g y o u (krii7y)

three; the truth comes out.

smittys pov;

"Smitty! Wake up!"

I groaned. I did not want to go to school today after what i said last night. I shut everyone out. I accidentally told John i liked him and it fucking sucked. I couldnt help but cry thinking about it.
Suck it up Smitty.

I got dressed not giving a fuck about my appearance and walked downstairs. My mom prepared me breakfast but i wasnt hungry. My stomach was full with butterflies knowing i'd have to face john at school today.

I left the plate of food on the counter and crept out of my house before my mom could yell at me for not eating.

I got into my car and played a depressing song called "Teen Romance" by Lil Peep

I drove into the school parking lot and hesitated getting out of the car.

I walked into the building ignoring everything Anthony and Scott said to me as i walked past them.  I got my books out of my locker slamming it shut. I wasnt in the mood for anything today. I just wanted to sleep forever.

I walked into Mr.Brownes classroom and sat in the back alone and not in my regular seat next to Anthony.

I ignored everything Mr.Browne was saying and ignored Anthony's attempts at getting my attention.

I pulled out my phone and plugged my headphones in. I opened youtube and  typed in KryozGaming. I knew it was John's youtube channel and i knew i was scared to even hear his voice but it was the only thing that cheered me up, even if i was sad over him.

I watched a video of him playing some stupid game called Polybridge. It was a really dumb game where you built bridges but his commentary was hilarious.

Lunch~

I knew i couldnt ignore my friends forever so i walked over to our lunch table and sat down. Before anyone could say anything i spoke softly .

"Do not ask. I am not in the mood. Please talk about anything but John."

They all nodded and started to talk about going bowling on Friday.

"We should go bowling Friday like we used to in the good ol' days." Scotty said

"Thats a great idea! We havent gone since we were in like middle school. It would be a nice change of scenery!" Anthony said

"I'm down" Tana said excitedly

They all turned and looked at me
"Smitty? Will you join us?" Scotty said quietly

"I guess. It could be fun."

I began eating my sandwhich when i felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to face the person who had tapped me.

Shit. It was John.

"Can we talk Smitty?"

I sighed. I was scared to death to even look at John but i knew i couldnt avoid him forever.

"Sure" i said sadly.

"Lets go somewhere private."

I followed John to an empty hall way and we sat on the floor leaning against the wall of lockers.

"Smitty. I know that text wasnt for me and i'll respect you and act like i didnt see it. But, i hope you know this doesnt change anything i still think you're a dope person and i still want to be your friend"

"Thank you John. I knew you didnt like me anyways so everythings okay i guess." I sighed.

"I never said i didnt like you but you just have to understand i just got out of a two year relationship. For now lets just focus on becoming better friends and learning more about eachother. Can we do that?"

my thoughts began to take over. he may like me? hes just not ready? fuck!

"Yeah that would be great. Thanks for this talk John.  I'm glad we had it."

"I'm glad too. Lets get back to lunch before your friends think somethings going on and freak out."

"Yeah. You're right. Anthonys definitely making up some crazy theory right now. I laughed."

We walked back to the cafeteria in a comfortable silence.

John and I parted ways and i sat back down at my table.

"What the fuck just happened!?" Anthony said curiously

"We talked. I'll explain later."

"You better" Scotty and Tana said at once.

The bell rang and i went about my day in a better mood then the one i was in when the day started .

I pulled into my driveway and ran upstairs.

*ding dong*

Who would be here at this time? I didnt invite anyone over?

I walked downstairs and opened the door to see a short angry girl with dark hair.

"Uhh can i help you?" i said confused.

"Yeah you fucking can. Leave my boyfriend the fuck alone you freak!" the girl spoke angrily.

"I'm sorry i dont follow?" i said confused still.

"Don't act like you dont know. John. He's my fucking boyfriend and hes not gay so dont think you'll ever have anything with him." she said sounding even more pissed off.

"Woah woah. You cheated on him. You broke up. As far as im concerned what John and I have is none of your business." i said getting mad.

"Oh please. I was at John's house yesterday. He loves me. Not you. Get that through your thick skull! Back the fuck off! He didnt think about you while i was satisfying his needs!" she said in an evil tone and winking at me.

"What the fuck?" i said choking back tears.

I slammed the door in the girls face and began breaking down.

This is some sick joke. I knew John could never love me. FUCK!

I waited til she was gone and i opened the door and got into my car and just driving. I didnt know where the fuck i was going but i didnt care. I was done with everything. I wasnt gonna kill myself but i needed to get the fuck away from everything.

8:00 PM

10 missed calls from Momma
7 missed calls from Dad
5 missed calls from Scotty🤠
2 missed calls from Panda🐼
50 Unread Texts

I was in a gross motel room alone and crying.
I was an hour away from home and i had no plan on going back anytime soon.

New Text from: John💔

John💔: Smitty? Where are you? Scotty messaged me on twitter saying you were missing and not answering. Please talk to me.

SadBoiSmitty: Who cares. I want to be alone. I'm not going home anytime soon. Do you even give a fuck? Your little girlfriend came to my house today and told me all about your fun meeting yesterday?

John💔: What the fuck? What are you talking about?

John💔: Smitty?

John💔: Please answer me!

I locked my phone and plugged it in across the room so i didnt have to see it any longer. I flicked on the TV and watched whatever movie was playing.

I drifted off to sleep.

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To Be Continued