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[30] Dreams or Memories?

Janella's POV

"Years ago, i was involved with a car accident while heading back here at Seoul. Gabi yun noong nangyari. I was so shocked nung may nadumbo kaming truck. The impact was so strong. Natanggal ang seatbelt ko at tumama ang ulo ko sa isang matigas sa bagay. Doon nagkagulo ang lahat. I was in coma for six months. Tapos nung nagising ako, i can't remember anything about the incident. Kuya told me everything, and i tried to remember pero parang binibiyak yung ulo ko sa sakit kapag sinusubukan kong alalahanin kaya nagtanong ng kung ano ano saakin yung doctor ko. Like, what's my name, how many siblings do i have, what's my parent's name, am i in a relationship. They didn't tell me the results but i bet it's bad. Sabi ng doctor, huwag ko daw piliting alalahanin ang hindi ko maalala dahil delikado daw iyon. He also warned my fanily and some of my friends na wag daw akong biniglain at hayaan ang sarili king makaalala dahil kusang babalik yung nga ala ala ko. May binigay saaking vitamins yung doctor para mas madali akong makaalala at may sinabi rin siyang mga side effects nito. Everything seems so normal when i was discharged but recently--" binasa ko ang labi ko at humunga ng malalim.

"I feel like there's someone na nakalimutan ko. There's this someone who has done a big role to my life na nakalimutan ko. I feel so sorry. I think i hurt them. I feel like they want me back but i can't because of my condition" tumingala ako para pigilan ang mga luhang gustong kumawala sa mga mata ko. Tinigtigan ko siya at sumalubong saamin ang malakas na titig niya.

"And I'm having dreams. I mean, i don't think they're dreams. I think they are memories. And those memories are the one's i have lost." he tilted his head and looked at me.

"Sino sino yung mga nasa panaginip mo?" tanong ni Yoongi.

"I don't know, either. His face was blurred "

"He? Tell me about what you saw in your dream"

"It's me with a guy. I've dreamed of him twice. Yung unang panaginip, he surprised me, happy anniversary. Umabot kami sa anniversary? The second one, he confessed that he loves me. Hindi pa nga niya ako nililigawan or what pero sabi niya saakin 'You're mine' tapos.. tapos--"

"Hinalikan ka niya?" tumingin ako ng taimtim sa mga mata niya. I don't know but i can see that pain and vulnerability is visible in his eyes. I shrugged it off. Tumango ako.

"I'm sure. I'm sure na iisang tao lang yung nasa panaginip ko. And kahit na hindi ko siya kilala, I'm sure mahalaga siya saakin. I'm sure he's done i big role in my life. I'm sure mahal niya ako and maybe he's suffering because of me" biglang tumayo si Yoongi at tumalikid saakin.

"Wag mong piliting maalala ang hindi mo maalala. Take your time." humarap siya saakin ng may malamig na mata.

"Ipa-take out mo na yan. We'll go home. Kung may napanaginipan ka sabihin mo lang saakin. I'll help you connect the dots." saad nito at naglakad palabas ng pinto. What the--bipolar talaga.

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