Black in Korea[Complete]

Not a great day

I went to the park to find him in a black coat shoes that he always wears,looking like a girl, White hair. I guess he dyed it before he came because he knows that I love his hair all white. I wanted to walk up to him but then I had to stop myself and ask if I should really do this. Will it make HyunOks' life better. Will it make My life better. I just stared at him for 2 minutes just to see if he would notice me. Then he finally did. he got up came over and as he started to get to close I started to back away.  Then did something I have never done in public. 

I cried 

"Stop your not the victim I did this to you. I'm sorry." He began to come more close. 

"Don't touch me. Why did you come back?" I mumbled under my tears.

"Can you not try to push me away CheonSa I want to make a difference I'm sorry, I love you so can you give me a chance." He said trying to hug me.

"OK fine I'm scared. I don't want you to leave again." I actually let him hug me.

"OK then I won't go I'll stay here OK. Don't cry please." He said giving me a hug.

It felt so comfortable, for the first time hugging BamBam felt soo good. 

"Dry your eyes. Don't cry, please. I love when you smile. You look so pretty when you do." He said kissing me on my forehead while I wiped off my tears.

"You must think I'm crazy,"I say pushing him off me and as pissed as can be.

"What are you talking about." He asked cautiously. 

"I'm not your barbie doll. You don't kiss me if you 'forgot' me for 5 months, right after HyunOk was born. Why did you come here FOR REAL." I asked and told him while angery staring straight into his eyes. 

"I want to get back together with you. The girls in the base only like me because they knew I was in a K-POP group and only want me cause of my body and they think I have alot of money. Your the only one that I know doesn't like me just because I'm an object. I'm sorry if you don't believe me but this doesn't seem like a great time to talk, so I'll go and come back tomorrow. Same time same place?" He said not looking dead into my eyes.

"Fine, I'll come back tomorrow." I said walking back home.