My Love bcome Crush Day by Day

Love became crush day by day

                                                                          Being living like a caged bird I feel frustrated sometimes . but I have to endure this coz that's going to be my whole life situation . By thinking about all these life became meaningless to me .Till  He is the only one in my mind apart from my family . But that time he became only crush to  me . I met him many times when we were in our graduation period coz we were in same collage . but that time I became totally dependent on my parents . I mean I was not able to walk without anyone's support . I was in that condition where I cant carry my own weight even to take a one step . ya kind of I feel embarrassed coz of that support coz everyone, my friends can walk normally their own and can enjoy with everyone where  they want to . but I cant do so. its painful more than embarrassing   .  but thinking about its my destiny from now on I had to endure it every bitter moments .

                                                                                                       About meeting my first Love its like everything is now is just dream only . I saw him every day .He was in the opposite building of my class building we were in first floor of each building that's why I got opportunity to saw him everyday through my class window .its like  my whole life moments in cage now just like a bird . I saw everyday his smile his appearance that was all my life .  I want to see him talk to him share my feelings to him, but I cant how can I huh!!!!!!!!!  once my friend caught me smiling to towards his class .After seeing me smile She asked me why are you smiling ???????????? I was like huh!!!!!!! me!!!!!!!!!!!!! smiling no no no I was just ...............  I pretended like  nothing happen . sometimes looking at him I cried standing far away . I want to talk to him but if he avoid me I couldn't handle it & I don't want coz of me he also suffer like my parents . I was glad that he is my #first & #Last Love  I was happy to see him from far I didn't expect much I just want to see him . I was glad that at least I had some memories with him even its bitter But it gets better until I recall his memories  

                                        It feels good at least if you have answer when someone ask about your first love .I know its weird but for me its the only moment when  I was happy with him. After Graduation I never him again . but till now I seen hi through social media . I can contact him but I don't want mess it up again coz its just a crush for me now . it Doesn't matter what's after this . for me I think he is the one He will be the one if he knows or not ...................................        

                                                                                                                           

                                                                                       Thank you for coming to my life #My_secret-Love"