Story of a Teenage Nothing

Big Girl Pants

"Why Kim? Just explain to me WHY?" 

I pulled the phone away from my ear. Lan was currently shrieking, and I actually wanted to avoid hearing loss. I'm glad people can't squeeze themselves through phones, 'cause if it were possible I'd be getting strangled by now.

"Are you done?" I said back to her.

"No I'm not. One I'm pissed that you never told me about this guy!"

"Lan I told you I was partnered with him. Let's keep to the facts here." I said rolling my eyes. She can be so dramatic sometimes.

"Yes exactly! You didn't tell me there was something going on between you two! I feel hurt!" Lan even managed to add a sniffle for extra effect.

"Lannie, I didn't even know there was something going on! This is a shock to me!" I say angrily. I called here to be supported, not condemned. 

"Oh puh-lease! You've known him for like three weeks now, and you had no clue that he was interested?" 

"Hey I thought he was just being friendly. I didn't want to jump to any conclusions."

"Well look where that got you smart one!" Lan cawed again.

"Lan are you done insulting me? What should I do?" I said rubbing my eyes which were sore from crying.

"I have never heard of a case like this. Usually when a cute, smart, and rich guy likes you - don't forget the rich part - you run towards them! NOT away!" 

"I know. I know. I don't know what came over me. I just got overwhelmed." I groaned, and grabbed my Winnie the Pooh bear. I needed something large, fluffy, and cuddly right now, and maybe a large bowl of ice cream that I could drown my sorrows in. 

"And jeez Kim did you even stop to think how Logan must feel? I mean having a girl run away from you? That's not good for any one's self esteem." 

"Oh gosh I know." I buried my head further into Pooh's tummy.

I felt like crap, for what I'd done a couple of hours ago. I'd instantly felt regretful, but when I went back outside to hopefully gain a shred of forgiveness from Logan, he'd already sped off. I can't be wired right. I run towards douche bags, and away from the nice guys! There's something wrong with that!

I had leaned against my front door for a few minutes before rushing upstairs to my room. Not only had I humiliated myself, I humiliated Logan, possibly the only decent guy left on the planet... ok fine, the only decent guy left in my school. 

I soon felt the need to share my misery, and I thought Lan, being so knowledgeable about the world of guys and girls, could somehow find me a way to smooth things over. Plus, Lan would be the only one up so late at night.

"I don't know how to help you here Kimmy. I know how to get revenge, and how to ruin a guy's life forever. My experience ends there. Like, I guess you could just apologize to him, or something?"

"Apologize? Sure, if he lets me near him! He'll probably never want to talk to me again!" I said sorrowfully. 

"Isn't he your partner? He's going to have to make contact with you eventually, whether he wants you or not. And things can be forgiven Kim. Just say that you saw a spider or something?"

"Really Lan? That's what you could come up with? A magical spider than appeared out of thin air?" My voice was dripping in sarcasm.

"Alright. I'm trying to help clean up your mess, Kim. I think a little appreciation is in order."

"You're right Lan. Sorry, I'm just stressed. I've never been in this type of situation before."

"Obviously. Hopefully after this, you'll never face anything like it. "