You've been friends with Mingyu since high school, ever since he save you from getting detention on the first day of school. Three years has past since then and now you were both in college trying to survive your individual courses and in return reality.
Now it comes to no surprise that you; over the course of years develop a crush on your friend, not when he's irresistibly charming, has a pleasing personality, the most sincere person and not to mention a handsome cutie. And like the movies and stories you've read, you didn't know what to do and didn't want to make things awkward between the two of you.
So you decided to keep your crush on him a secret but of course doing so makes him even more attracting to you. Eventually that simple crush of yours turn into full on liking and once you've realize your feelings there was no turning back. You tried even harder to suppress it and to act as normal as possible but it was hard, so hard; even more so since you two tend to spend time together a lot.
You didn't want to avoid him, you've read enough and saw enough to know that those wouldn't do you any good and just complicates things more and so you had no choice but to accept that you were harboring feelings for your good friend who seems to only see you as nothing else but that... a friend.
You felt wary whenever he was in close distance, which is silly because you shouldn't, you really shouldn't. But you had no clue what to do, not when he's your first love.
Things become even more complicated and conflicting when your family and friends decides to intervene.
"Aren't you and Mingyu dating?" Some would ask.
"I thought you two were dating since you two look at each other so fondly as if you're in love." Others would say.
'Do we? Do we look at each other like that? Does he? Does he like me the way I like him?'
But every time those questions pop up, your thoughts quickly get dismissed.
'No. He doesn't see me that way. They've just misread the situation.'
"No. No. we're just friends. Really... just... friends." That was always your reply, no matter how many times you have told that answer, it always leaves a bitter taste in your mouth. It makes you realize... that... that is all you'll ever be to him. No matter how hard you wish for it to be something else... you knew, you were just friends.
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They're words got stuck in your mind a lot these days. No matter how hard you try to brush it off, it keeps on popping up again and again as if it was an annoying notification or a song stuck in a replay button. And it doesn't help that the source of all these thoughts is around you almost 24/7.
It was another day. Well another day with him that is. He always invites you whenever you're free that it has become a norm for you two to be always together. Today was no different.
You were at the public park watching him play soccer with a couple of teenagers. He look so youthful and full of energy as if he was still a high schooler. You find yourself falling even more. He manages to glance at you, face all smiley, he waves at you before continuing with the game. You just smiled at him from afar.
Their game ends and those familiar words pops up again.
"Noona, you're so lucky to be dating this hyung. He's really cool!"
"Hyung is also lucky to dating such a beautiful noona, right hyung?"
He chuckles and smiles at them. Your eyes turn wide from the same old comment again. You were waiting for him to deny it, like he always does whenever people ask you this. But he was just smiling at them. Not saying a word.
So you opted to do it instead.
"We're not dating. We're just friends."
The teenagers' faces turn shocked.
"Really noona?"
"Yeah. We're just friends."
And for a moment there you thought you saw Mingyu's face turn solemn, before quickly dissipating into a full on smile, canines and all. What you didn't know was he forced himself to smile.
"Yep. We're just friends." He manages to say.
After that you two were left alone at the park. He ends up teaching you how to play soccer since he did promise at some point in your life that he'll teach you. It just so happen that today is the lucky day. Unfortunately for you, you didn't have the outfit for playing but he was persistent and so you end up getting dragged into playing soccer in casual clothes, luckily you were in pants... or not?
Things quickly got down and dirty, literally. And the two of you were a mess of sweat, dust, dirt and limbs. You had no clue what happened but you were both lying side by side on the grassy field, soccer ball on his side. He turns to face you and you did the same and for a moment there something was going on between the two of you. He was staring at you so intently and couldn't keep his eyes off you. You felt shy from his stares and tried not to think much about it. You turned away from him and sit up first. He frowns at the lost of eye contact but does the same and stands up helping you up as well.
You two called it a day and heads home.
