The Love That Never Fade

I'm Yours

"Love is like a puzzle. First it is confusing and frustrating,
but when you figure it out, it is a beautiful thing"
- Anonymous

It has been a few days after the incident in his apartment but it felt very fresh in Toby's mind. Every time he recalled it, the thought of her made him smile to himself. He wished it recorded forever in his mind - Their hearts finally found each other, like so many pieces of puzzles that confused them so much before that finally found its matches, and create a beautiful picture. They moved their relationship to another level, to a level to be equal in each other, to trust each other, as lovers. Nowadays his heart ached when he didn't see her in a day. Just to see her face was the cure for the pain. To hear her voice made his fluttering heart calmer.

"Don't you think we are being too reckless?" Addy said curiously. Her fingers playing with the gold embroidery and buttons along the edge of his coat. For the past 3 days, she met him in his trailer during the lunch break. She simply needed to meet him regularly. All she needed was the certainty of his love and his reassurance.

Toby chuckled. The way Addy asked him was like a deja vu to him. He heard it before when they acted intimately as Francis and Mary. He kissed the top of her head gently, caressing her brown wavy hair. He loved the smell of her hair and her gentleness, while she was lying comfortably with her expansive dress next to him with her head against his chest. He continued reading his script for Season 2 first episode. They will be going to Ireland after a brief break.

"Toby? Did you listen to my question?" Addy moved her head a bit on his black velvet coat. She was already a little bit sleepy.

"Yeah... I don't think we're being too reckless... We're just too in love, darling... You're mine, I'm yours," Toby whispered to her softly. His voice vibrated to Addy's ears and Addy could hear his steady heartbeat. He was in his calmest state. She smiled to herself. Her heart was so much contented with love that she felt like hugging him tighter.

"I hate to be pretending with my friends...Toby, I feel like to tell the whole world you're mine," Addy said softly, moving her head up and facing him who was smiling adorably at her. She didn't have the mood to look into the scripts. She just needed Toby next to her.

"Really darling?" Toby chuckled again. He kissed her forehead, caressing her cheeks and lips. He continued whispering, "Probably now it's still not a good time. Be patient my love. Soon, we will tell the whole world... I love you very much and no one can take you from me."

Addy smiled at him adoringly. Toby looked at her with a deep endearing gaze, his blue-ocean like eyes looked intensely into her marble-like brown eyes. It looked like they were drowning to each other eyes. Slowly they moved closer enough till his nose touched hers and the sweet scent of her perfume immediately filled his nostrils. His heart was beating faster and he felt slightly out of breath. He can see her beautiful lips slightly parted and her eyes closed, waiting for his kiss-

- Suddenly they startled by Toby's loud ringtone. Toby felt slightly irritated with the disturbance, quickly picked up his phone. It was Torr on the other line.

"Hello? Toby! Where are you??" Torr said loudly. It was loud enough for Addy to hear it who was still next to Toby.

"I'm in my trailer. What?" Toby said calmly. He motioned to Addy to remain quiet.

"We're supposed to have a farewell party for Alan this afternoon and you said you want to be the MC, remember? It's about to start in 5 minutes," Torr said lengthy.

"Sh*t! I almost forgot about it," Toby quickly sat up on his bed.

"Do you know where's Addy? She didn't pick up her phone, reply my text or it's probably dead. Does she know about this? She suppose to bring our gift for Alan," Torr asked, with anger tone. Toby raised his eyebrows towards Addy. She looked at him with a curious look. Then she remembered she put her phone in silent mode. She quickly looked into her phone, and there were a few missed call and unread messages. Damn!

"I'll tell Addy if I see her around. Don't worry about her," Toby said, rolling his eyes towards her. Addy immediately closed her mouth. She almost giggled.

"Ok. We're waiting for you. Now!" Torr said and hanged up the phone. Both of them laughed heartily like two naughty teenagers.

"How long are we going for this charade?" Addy said cheerfully. She quickly jumped to her feet and rearrange her dress and put on her high heel shoes.

"As long as we loved each other," Toby came close to her, immediately tickled her and planted kisses on her cheeks. Addy laughed cheerfully but in her heart, she felt so heavy to leave him. Not even a minute or second.

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We all dream of finding
that one person
whom will love us even after
there are no more tomorrows.
- Faye Hall

All the crews and casts already gathering in the studio hall where they put a large cake in the centre table, decorated with "Best Of Luck Alan!".

Torr was looking on his watch repeatedly, Toby didn't appear yet and they supposed to start in 3 minutes ago. All of them were waiting - some of them talking to Alan, others had small talk with each other, laughing, looking at their phones and some just remained seated obediently. Torr cursed to himself - Where is the hell are you Toby Regbo???

Suddenly he appeared from behind, startled Torr and standing calmly next to him, grinning like an idiot. He combed his slightly unruly hair with his hand.

"Since everyone here, shall we start now?" Toby whispered.

"Where have you been this time, little brother?" Torr asked annoyingly.

"I've fallen... asleep," Toby said casually, slightly hesitate.

"With whom?" Torr asked with a teasing tone. That question made him feel surprised but he just raised his eyebrows and smiled broadly like nothing happened.

"Toby, is this your new habit of tardiness? I'm just a bit worried. Any problems Tobes? Few days back, we have to wait for you for an hour before the take, remember?" Torr babbled. Toby remembered, that was the day he had an unforgettable morning with Addy that had caused a little bit trouble for both of them.

"Yeah, I know. You don't have to worry Big Brother. Everything is fine. We shall start now and argue later," Toby grinned and patted Torr's back. He nodded in agreement.

Without any further delay, Toby started the small farewell party for Alan by making introduction to the crowd.

In the corner of the crowd, Addy quickly walked into the hall with the gift in the big paper bag and stood quietly next to Caitlin and Celine in the back row. She remained calm and poised.

"Hey, there you are. I've been looking for you," Caitlin said. She glanced at Addy on her left and surprised to see Addy's face was quite flushed and looking radiant.

"Are you okay Addy? You look flushed," Caitlin asked her and touched her forehead. But she wasn't having fever. Addy was a bit surprised with Caitlin's reaction.

"I'm OK. What's up?" Addy asked. She immediately spotted Toby who was standing next to Alan. Alan was giving a quick speech.

"Nothing important... we have planned a girls night out before you fly to San Diego. Me, you, Celine and Anna. Is it OK with you?" Addy felt a bit hesitate to give answers. Alan just cut his cake and everyone cheered for him.

"Let me... think about it first," Addy said. In the first place, she was planning in her mind to spend another night at Toby's apartments. But she never mentioned it to Toby yet.

"I rarely see you around lately Adde, and Toby too. Are both of you up to something?" Caitlin whispered to her. Addy surprised by her question, pretending she didn't understand it and smiled broadly.

"I know something is going on... Since you disappeared the whole night.. Hmm... Few days back. Any progression between you two? You're free to tell me," Caitlin whispered to her again, trying to get more information but Addy just ignored her.

"What? Nothing. End of discussion. I might agree with the girls night out if you stop bringing this gossip again," Addy said, a little bit stern. She had to agree with Caitlin's plans if she didn't want her secret affair to be known.

"OK, fine. I will let you know where we will go," Caitlin agreed happily.

Addy saw Toby from afar, he was next to Alan - talking something with him and then both of them shook hands, Alan patted his back like a son and then they laughed heartily. Probably something really funny. Toby saw her from afar, and he immediately smiled broadly and winking his left eye at her. It made her giggled.

"What are you laughing at?" Caitlin suddenly asked her.

"Err... Nothing. Shall we give the gift and get a piece of the cake?" Addy said, trying to change the topic. Her reaction didn't cause much suspicion to Caitlin who then agreed.

Addy didn't know for how long she has to lie her friends and kept on this secret love between her and Toby. She wasn't really good in this charade, pretending there was nothing between them. She loved him so much but at the same time she was so afraid of losing him. If she couldn't tell the whole world, she felt she need to share it with someone. Soon.

"I want you, but I'm afraid..."
- Mary Stuart

To be continued.