Feeling...unspeoken words

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trying hard to active
trying hard to feel alive
trying hard to free
trying hard to useful
trying hard to say I'm human too
trying hard to set goal
end up with crying on the pillow silently...
people say your life was so good not need anything perfect..like heaven but the person who never feel love,don't have any goal,never feel what the happiness is....it call human?...not it was just live ....live like a dead person   ....it not human it just a robot sleep wake up ,ate stay in the tiny room....it not peaceful for yongage person it was like a living hell fight with lonliness...but no one understand ....if that person silently left the world no one known..no one will miss.......