Bully

Chapter 1

        " I don't wanna be your secret anymore."  The statement echoed in my ears. Brian's eyes widened as he said those words. With a face I will remember forever.

         I starred back at him, emotionless, " I can't... we can't." My face darkened. 

        " It has been three years Carter. I don't know how much longer I can sneak around like this. I see you in the hallway with Emily and I can't, I just can't take it anymore." Brian looked away as he spoke those words. 

        " What is with the sudden change in opinion," I inquired, " You know how hard my situation is, I just can't tell people I'm," I froze at the word, like it is a word of horror.

        " Gay. Carter you're gay. You have been gay ever since freshman year and Carter it has been three years. Three god damn years and you are still not comfortable with your sexuality like it is something to be ashamed of. And it really makes me feel like crap, like our relationship is crap, just a freakin high school fling."  

        The reflection of the sun shinned over his face through my basement windows.  I got up at the completion of his statement, " I think it is time for you to leave." I lifted my arm and aimed it toward the stairs leading up to the first floor. 

        " Leave your house or leave your life? Becuse I honestly can't tell the difference." He ran his fingers through the front of his perfectly styled black hair and looked toward the floor. I followed him up the stairs and to the door.

        " Oh sweetie, you're leaving this early, you just got here." My mom yelled from the kitchen.

        Brian starred into my eyes and I could feel the hurt that was dwelling inside, " Miss. Stevens I have a family affair that I have to attend." He said not breaking eye contact.

        I watched him leave my home. I flinched at the sound of the door slamming behind him. I stood still and watched him walk down my two and a half mile driveway to the tall white gates that divided society and my twelve acre property.

        Looking back, it wasn't the fear of losing everything that scared me it was the fear of acceptance that prevented me from telling my family. They are blinded by money and I knew if I would ever dare tell them about my sexuality they would dissown me, throw me out of the house, and in two seconds I would have nothing.