Hate life

Chapter 7 So scared!

It's been 5 mounts with out my dad in my life, my mom is doing so well with out dad, my sister Kayla stabbed me on the leg and she ran away and she not to be found! My brother are helping me and making sure I don't try to kill myself, my grandma is helping them too. My grandpa is working hard to keep us heathy an making sure I don't die, nobody really cared about Kayla.

Today my sister lisa comes to see the family again I'm kinda happy she coming. lisa is here and she heads up to my room.

Lisa say "hey Bella... omg what happen to your leg!?"

I say "Kayla stabbed my leg!"

Lisa says "where is Kayla?"

I say "she ran away!"

Lisa says "have you been cutting your self!?"

I say "yes I have...."

Lisa says "have you been doing drugs!?"

I say "yess..."

Lisa says "have you tryed killing yourself!?"

I say "yes about 2 or 3 times since you left!"

Lisa says "have you almost died in one of them!"

I say "yes i almost died but the shot went into the wall and not my head!"

Lisa says "are you glad it didn't go through your head?"

I say "no I was scared tho but I still wanna die!"

Lisa says "I'm done asking you questions I was hopping that would make you stop but noo!"

Lisa walks out of the room and slams the door shut! I was so scared cause she was so mad, my brother come back in the room and talk to my for about 2 hours then they left....

I was home alone, I was ready to shot myself and I was ready to die!

I walk into the bathroom I look into the merrow and look at me, look at what I becomed, then I put the gun to my head and I was ready to shot myself! till my grandma walks in the washroom and takes the gun and puts me in my room and tells me to go to sleep!

I thought that it was home alone but I toke some drugs and passed out.

When I woke up my brother was like why are you doing this, then I passed out again.

I woke up and nobody was there I heard nothing but I saw the gun in my grandmas room, I grab then gun, walk into the bathroom an do the same thing I always do.

I shot myself....but....