Sleeping with jc caylen

Scared!!

Well weeks went by & jc & I didn't talk I just don't know what to say to him & because I was at shyas house.

I was walking to the bathroom as I ran into jc it was awkward, "hey" I hear jc say behind me when I was walking away "hey" I say & look back at him "how have you been, I me we haven't talked in like forever" he says & looks into my eyes "Yeah after that whole night" I say like it's awkward "yeah Ik what you mean I...I just needed to come up with the words, I'm guessing you heard" he says like he doesn't wanna say it "no, what?" I say walking towards him slowly but not to slowly "umm my girlfriend & I broke up she umm didn't have the feels for me anymore" he looks down at his feet & I hug him before I realize what the fuck I am doing "umm sorry It just looked like you needed a hug" I say embarrassing "no come here" jc says as we both hug.

"I have to go I umm have plans with sam" I say walking away slowly "yeah see you sky"

Nobody has called me sky not even sam, I walk outside & Sam is sitting in the car as I open the door Sam is just getting off the phone "hey baby, who was that?" I say calmly "nobody, don't worry about it it's none of your business!" he says loudly & annoyed by me "okay sorry" I say as I looks down at my lap & I am doing the weird thing with my bracelet, we start to drive to the movies to meet up with are friends Sam puts him hand on my thigh & it give me butterfly's right away, after the whole car ride being silent we finely arrive at where we are meeting up with friends. Before I get out of the car I lean over to give Sam a kiss but he gets out to fast for me to even.

I get out the car & Sam is hugging shaya what the fuck I slowly walk over to Sam & grab his hand but before I know it his is ripping his hand out of mine "what the fuck sam" I say before I realize what I am saying "what?" he says as he turns to look at me "why are you not holding me in your arms or anything like that!!!" I say before I know it there are tears running down my face "babe don't cry come here" he grabs my hand as we walk outside.

"Why the fuck are you not holding my hand & in the car what was that?" I say angry

"What are you talking about?" he says looking into my eyes

"Its like you don't want me here I understand you don't but just say something" I say

"I cheated on you & it's been killing me I didn't like I did it til the next day" he says fast but looks away

"You what!?" I start to cry even more & before I know it all these thoughts came to mind like who, when, what day ,how long ago, was he thinking of me the whole time,

"Babe say something" Sam says as he pulls me from everything I wanna say right now

"I...i can't talk to you right now" I say walking away from him

"Skyler please babe don't do this" I hear him saying from behind me

"You hurt me I thought you loved me what the fuck" I say crying

"I do baby it was the night I tried with you but you didn't want to so I just stopped & minutes later shaya..." then there it is the person who did it my fucking best friend "wait what who?!" I say crying even harder now as I slowly fall to the ground but kinda catch myself "goodbye forever were done I fucking hate you" I say & start to run.

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Sorry I haven't been able to write I was in Ottawa, haven't been home, feels good to be home!! Well hope yous like it!!