It's complicated | Yoonseok/SOPE

11.The Dark

*Hoseok's point of view*

Hoseok had lied on his bed as he started thinking

What was that book? Why did Yoongi have it? Why was he this sad when I saw it?

Hoseok couldn't get these thoughts out of his head.
He kept spinning round and round in his bed. Trying to conceal his pain. Trying to avoid his temptation to look deeper into the situation.

What did Yoongi know, who LET him know?

Ughhhhh! GET. OUT. OF. MY. HEAD!

He screamed in agonizing psychological pain.

-MUMMY PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME

-Baby don't worry it is for the best! Live a happy life my angel

Hoseok started crying as painful memories reached him once again.

Hoseok had gone through lots of trauma back in his day. He had experienced some things no normal human being would.

He had done things a person shouldn't.

It really hurt to think of the possibility that the love of his life knew.

He decided to clear his head by brushing his teeth and going to sleep.

No sooner had he entered the bathroom he heard the water being turned on.

He hasn't heard any 'strange' noises, so he wanted to make sure it was Yoongi by himself, as he had hoped to.

He thought it was a perfect chance to enter his room telling Jimin that he wanted to take something he had borrowed back.

It wouldn't be a complete lie since Yoongi borrowed tons of things from Hoseok.

Headphones, speakers, coats, sunglasses and more.

He slowly opened the shower room door
(In Korea the shower and bath are in a different room from the toilet, unless you live in a very small apartment).

What he saw startled him.

Yet he couldn't stop watching.
His imagination ran wild being able to look at Yoongi this way

But he soon noticed he wasn't alone.

He watched the entire thing, heard every single word and felt all sorts of pain in his heart.

Tears ran down his face.
He was used to it.

It wasn't the first time he had witnessed Yoongi getting it on with someone. Sharing the same bathroom was torturous. It was a blessing, yet a curse.

Hoseok closed the small gap of the door and decided to pull himself together.

He couldn't care about Yoongi anymore.

Besides it was his chance to find the book.

That was way more important at that point.

He was used to this kind of pain, but the one he had yet to experience was something that went beyond each and every boundary.