Riley POV****
I knew what I was doing when I told everyone I didn't remember Nash. I just wanted him out of my head and life because he said I was pathetic or I didn't deserve love when I was in that coma. I was just so mad and hurt, but now I'm fucking up again and lying to everyone. There's no way he would forgive me if he found out about this.
I was going back to school now for the first time after the coma. It was Monday and I barley entered the school and it was the first time without Nash. Everyone turned to look at me and smiled, they all cheered for returning and being okay.
"WE MISSED YOU GARDENER!" Bailey yelled and I smiled
"i missed you all too" i said back. I walked down the hall of everyone telling me how they're glad that I'm safe, they're glad that I'm okay.
"Nash isn't worth it" Ashley came up to me and I scrunched my eyebrows together pretending to act confused
"who's Nash?"
"Nash Grier? Your ex!?" she said "listen if you're hurt you don't have to pretend you don't know him"
"she seriously doesn't remember Nash" Cailey came up. She still thinks I don't remember Nash.
"what are you talking about?" Ashley looked at me and Cailey left to right.
"when she woke up from the coma, she had no idea who Nash was, she doesn't even remember what happened between them" Cailey explained for me "the doctor said not to pressure her to remember or it'll delay her memory"
"well that's great then, just remember not to fall for him or anything" Ashley said and I nodded my head
"why is that?" I asked acting like I already didn't know why. She explained everything about Nash being the ladies man and how he is towards relationships. "thanks for the heads up" i said and the bell rung. I went to my first period class alone and when I entered the teacher was there already along with the rest of the class.
"I'm glad you're back Miss Gardener" Mr. Parks said and the class cheered. I looked over at my seat and I saw Nash looking at me but I put a confused look on my face.
"Glad to be back Mr. Parks" i said and I sat down ignoring the fact that Nash was in here.
It must be really awkward or painful for Nash because I'm in most of his classes and all the teachers notify me that they're glad I'm back. Every time I looked at Nash he would have a hurt look on his face and the guilt was coming back. The guilt felt worser than when I was doing the bet.
I was walking to my sixth period class and every step I took made heart beat faster and faster know that Nash sat right next to me, because he was my partner. We were always required to talk to our partners everyday as part as daily assignments we do. I finally got to my class and Nash was sitting there with his hood on. I slowly walked to my desk and sat down next to him hoping he wouldn't speak to me.
"class I am handing out a little work sheet to work with your partner" Mr. Grayson spoke and started to pass around the papers. Great.
We finally got our paper and I clicked my pen once to write my name on the paper. I passed it to Nash and he kept his head down. He started to write his name and I saw a tear fall on the paper.
"w-what's the matter with you?" I bothered to ask. It was really stupid for asking. He stayed quiet and just did the work sheet himself. He stood up to turn in the paper but still kept his head down. "Nash?"
"do you remember me?!" He looked up at me and smiled with tears in his eyes still
"no, I just know your name, you did yell at me at my house and you wrote your name on our paper" i said and he put his head down. He sighed and I put my head down and started play with my fingers.
"Riley, I wanna take you out back to our first date" he told me and I shook my head "why not?" he whined and more tears started to build up in his eyes
"b-because I asked friends about who we were as a couple" i told him "they said we were happy but you used me, they said that you used me for sex" i kept my head down "then I asked other people and they said that you were bad at keeping relationships, they told me you move on from one girl to another in a matter of days"
"it's not tr-" he tried saying but I cut him short
"and Sally, she told me that after the last basketball game I played, we broke up and you were laughing when I was crying" i said "she even told me that right after we broke up you were talking to another girl already"
"Riley that girl came up to me, the reason why I wasn't crying was because I wanted to look like I was strong, but in reality I wanted to break down in front of everyone" he said with his voice cracking "Riley, please nobody else knew what kind of couple we really were, only us two really knew, and our friends, the whole school practically knew but stopped believing everything when they though I used you for sex"
"I'm sorry Nash, I'm not risking it, if people told me I couldn't handle the break up then I don't think I should try again" i said "i don't think we should hang out"
"Class we are doing a project that you must do with a partner" Mr. Grayson told us finally breaking mine and Nash's conversation
"can we p-" Ally tried asking
"no you cannot choose partners, your partners are your class partners no exceptions" he explained. Great. "you're gonna have to do this project on your own time with your partner"
"what if your partner refuses to talk to you" Nash stated putting me on blast
"well you're gonna have to figure that out" Mr. Grayson said
"i never said I refuse to talk to you, I said we shouldn't hang out" i said back and the whole class was paying attention to us
"but I wanna hang out with you, I want you back Riley" he said and everyone was shocked "i'm gonna do what ever it takes to get you to remember me again, to remember all the things we've been through"
"what ever" i said not wanting to start a fight in front of the class
"what ever? WHAT EVER? I know that I love you and you told me that you loved me back, but when you woke up from the coma you didn't remember who I was at all! do you know how much it hurts loving someone who doesn't even remember you?! doesn't even remember hoe much we loved each other?!!A LOT and all you can say is what ever?"
"Mr. Grier please settle down"
"WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY? that I'm sorry that I don't remember loving you? That I don't remember you using me? I just wanna stay away from you because everyone is telling me you're dangerous to even love" i said
"Miss Gardener! please!"
"YOU DON'T EVEN WANNA GIVE IT A TRY! I CAN SHOW YOU THAT WHAT I FELT FOR YOU WAS REAL!" He stood up and the class was glued onto us
"BECAUSE I DON'T WANNA BE DUMPED AND LEFT FOR ANOTHER GIRL! LIKE EVERYONE SAYS YOU DO!" i stood up too
"I STAYED WITH YOU FOR THREE MONTHS UNTIL YOU BROKE MY HEART!" he started to cry and I wasn't even crying because I was hiding it. Mr. Grayson kind of gave up on trying to make us stop.
"I BROKE YOUR HEART? ME?!" i asked being shocked "FROM WHAT I HEARD YOU BROKE MY HEART SUPPOSEDLY, I don't even understand anyways you seem like a jerk now that I think about it" i said "i mean who the hell laughs at a girl for crying over a break up? Who goes to hit on another chick five minutes after a breakup?" i asked "APPARENTLY YOU DO!" i said pointing at him
"YOU SHOULD KNOW WHAT YOU TOLD ME!" he said
"HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW IF I DON'T REMEMBER SHIT ABOUT THE BULLSHIT RELATIONSHIP THAT SUPPOSEDLY HAPPENED BETWEEN US!" i was furious
"MISS GARDENER! MISTER GRIER PLEASE SIT DOWN AND STOP!"
"THE RELATIONSHIP WASN'T BULLSHIT RILEY! I MADE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WERE MY WORLD! I SHOWED YOU THAT YOU ARE MY WORLD!" Nash yelled and I rolled my eyes
"yeah your world for like a week or two huh?" i said sarcastically and chuckled
"WHAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY ABOUT THIS!" Nash got pissed off with tears.
"it's funny because you're yelling me at me for something I couldn't control, it's not my fucking fault for loosing my memory about you and us, you think I chose to forget you? Do you think it's my fault for getting in the car accident, and hit my head so hard? you think I chose to be in that coma for a month to forget all about you? NO! so stop fucking blaming me for it, stop trying to make me feel bad about something I don't remember, stop trying to make me feel bad about not loving you at all" i replied and he was just flowing down with tears. I sat down and put my head down and groaned.
"mister Grier please have a seat so we can talk about the project" Mr. Grayson said. I put my head up with a fake smile and started to slouch. I heard the class door open and close. I looked to my left and Nash was gone with out his things.
"Riley, will there be a problem with working with Nash?" the teacher asked
"not really, it'll be okay" i said "i'll just explain the project to him later" the teacher nodded his head.
"so class we will be doing a short poetry segment, i know most of you have read Romeo and Juliet in the ninth grade" he said and picked up papers "so this year I will be dividing scene between the classes and I will give you all two weeks before you have to preform the scenes in class" He started to pass around the papers and mine got to my desk. "to the people who have kissing scenes, the kissing is up to you and your partner, I'll give you extra credit if you do end up doing the kissing scenes with your partner" I looked at my paper and there was a kissing scene between Romeo and Juliet. "males will be Romeo, females will be Juliet, if your partner is the same gender you can choose who's, who" he looked up at the whole class. "is that clear?"
"yes" the whole class mumbled here and there.
I'm behind in all of my classes and my grades decreased. I needed a good grade, I needed the best grade and I think I'm gonna have to end up kissing Nash. I wonder how this is gonna turn out.
The bell rung and I decided to be a nice person and gather Nash's things together. I walked to his locker to check if he was there and he wasn't. I knew his locker combination so I opened it up and put his stuff in there. His backpack was gone so he probably left already.
I went straight home and beat myself up more about what I said to him in front of the whole class. I lied more to him and now everyone at school probably thinks now, that I don't remember Nash. This is gonna be hard to explain to everyone when they find out.
