(Y/N)'s P.O.V.
we were laying in the bed...or should I say the broken bed anyways we're laying in an awkward silence. My head on his chest drawing unexciting shapes by my fingers while he was stroking my hair. "Justin?" I said softly "hm" he mumbled "I love u so much" I said "I love u more" he mumbled rubbing my arm. I smiled and kissed his chest a little kiss "hmmm can I ask u something?" I asked him "shoot it" he said "how did lily die?" I asked but he didn't reply "look ik already she was ur girlfriend one day but what makes u hate it when someone mentions her name?" I asked him then he took his arm off me "please, tell me...what happened to her?" I asked looking up at him he took a deep breathe and said "i-....I killed her" my mouth dropped. I mean how could he do that?! "h-how?" I asked "that day...I...we....I dont want to talk about it" he said. I took his hand in mine rubbing it with my thumb "tell me...its okay" I said. "That night, w-we were having sex and...." He said but then stopped "and what? Tell me what happened?!" I said tightened my hand on his hand "i was kissing her neck but I went further and sucked it until I drank her blood....she...she was trying to push me....but of course I was stronger than her...and then she died" he said looking away and clenched his jaw. "Why?...i mean why didn't u stop sucking her blood?" I asked him "I couldn't" he said "no u could justin.... U could stop" I told him "no y/n it wasn't like that..." He said with a loud voice "then tell me how was it?" I said to him. He clenched his jaw and moved his legs and put his feet on the floor and took his boxer and wore it then walked to the door of the balcony. I moved from the bed to him with the blanket wrapping around me. "Tell me..." I said "I can't..." He said "just try" I told him putting my hand on his shoulder he took a breathe first and said "I...at that day a homeless boy was in the street but his arm was bleeding I smelt his blood i was wondering how does blood taste I mean since I knew I'm half human half vampire I had never drink blood just was always eating food like any normal human anyways I just wanted to know how was it if I drank a a blood? So I went to him with that speed and put my finger on his blood and disappear from him with that speed and hid....I started to lick it and it was a perfect feeling...like I was in heaven or something like that...I then went to lily's house and I told u...we had sex and I drank her blood" he said "okay but what does that blood of homeless boy have to do with u drinking lily's blood?!" I asked "cos if I drink or taste the blood I won't resist it if I smell it or see it...it was the first to me to taste blood...so while I was kissing her neck I felt her blood growing and boiling into her vein of her neck cos u know the neck and wrist are the most places in any human body contain blood...so it was boiling and I couldn't resist cos I already taste it..." He said...."if I didn't taste that homeless boy's blood I wouldn't be out of control and kill her" he add with a whisper voice "its not ur fault" I said rubbing his shoulder. He removed my hand from his shoulder and yelled "IT IS Y/N IT IS..." "Look maybe it's ur fault but then what? It won't bring her back justin...dont blame yourself" I said to him but he tried to not face me "look at me...look at me justin" I told him but he ignored me. I moved my hand to his chin bringing his face to me at first he didn't want but then he looked down at me "dont blame yourself....wasn't u the one that told me that God give everyone their fate and destiny...and it was fate we can't change it.....and if u really loved her that much why didn't u turn her? I mean half human half vampire can turn humans, right?" I said to him. He faked a smile and said "yeah we can....and I loved her so much thats why I didn't turn her" "I don't get it" I said, "if I did turn her, she would be a full vampire & the boss would find her and burn her...cos remember we have to burn any full vampire even tho they're good....damn it" he said hitting the door of the balcony. I directly removed my hand from his chin. "it's okay baby....it's still not ur fault just calm down" I said "I love her...I. Still fucking love her she was the only one that accept the fact I'm half human half vampire...I miss her" he said. I was standing can't believe what did he say? I thought he would say he loved her not love her...and he even said he misses her. "y/n I'm sorry I didn't mean to say it I-" he said but I cut him off "save it" I said and went to the closet with the blanket still wrapping around me, opening the closet taking pink sweatpant and a black tank top. I was going to the bathroom when Justin stood in front of me "y/n I really didn't me-" he said "move I wanna take a shower" I cut him off. He sighed and moved. I went into the bathroom closing the door and locked it. I leaned aganist the door. How could he say that? In front of me? How could he say he still loves her? That means she's still in his mind...I don't blame him but it hurts to know he thinks about his ex while he's with his gf. I prefer him laying to me saying he dont love her than saying the truth that he still loves her. I then dropped the blanket and stood in front of the mirror. I looked at myself noticing the love bites he left on my neck and shoulder. I smiled to myself remembering what happened since some hours ago...yeah it was a sex morning...everybody has their first fuck in night while me and Justin in the morning lol.
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The Dangerous Nerd
Fanfictiona normal girl but at the same time dirty girl...her heart is broken but she got over it but then she met a nerd and his behavoir wasn't like a nerd...that boy called justin...he had a big secret at his life but all he wanted is to know that girl...s...