I make my way downstairs once I know Blink's in the room. I hear Specs ask him if he 'got lucky' and blushed. Thank god nobody could see me. Once I reach the door, I hesitate. My hand is on the doorknob. Do I really want to go out there? What if something happens? I could never live with myself if I did that to Blink. No. That won't happen.
I fling the door open a little harder than I meant to, but if I don't do this now, I'll back out. An extremely attractive and worried looking Jack stands there, running his hand through his hair repeatedly.
"Hey Jack." I say after a moment of watching him. He jumps slightly and turns to face me. A small smile appears on his face when he sees me, but disappears as quickly as it came.
"Was startin' ta think ya wouldn't show." He walks over to me and I tense up a little. Jack seems to notice, because he stops.
"Look. I'm sorry. I- just wanted ta see ya again. Blink followed me ev'ry time I came ta visit ya when ya were sick. I had ta see ya, alone." He steps forward and holds my hand. I don't pull away. Why am I not pulling away? Instead I step forward, so we're only a few inches apart.
"Abby, I just can't keep it from ya anymore." He looks at his feet and his shoulders droop. I put my free hand on his shoulder comfortingly.
"What's wrong Jack?"
"I- I" he looks up at me with sad eyes and I can feel my heart breaking.
"I love you." He says. I don't know what to say, so I just stand there like an idiot.
"I'm sorry. I just had to say it." He says quickly. He releases my hand and heads towards the door quickly. I grab his wrist to stop him.
"Jack wait!" He whips around and pulls me to him roughly. He kisses my lips desperately. Jack holds me to him tightly. I don't kiss back, but I don't stop him. He was a good kisser. It was uncomfortable for him to kiss me and me not kiss back. Finally I just kiss him back. Then my worst fear came true: I loved it.
I held onto Jack and kissed him for a long while. His hand traveled up the back of my shirt and I moaned softly.
Out of breath, we pull apart.
"Look, I knows this," he motions from him to me and back and forth "can't woik since youse wit Blink and all, but I love ya. A lot. I just-" he sighs "wanted ya ta know dat. Dat's all. I'm sorry."
"Don't be. I-it's okay." He kisses my forehead and I feel what I felt before. Butterflies in my stomach and spinning in my head. All I wanted in that moment was for him too kiss me again. No! Don't think that way.
"I'se betta get goin'. Blink'll be, wondrin' where I am and all. Look, I'm sorry that we can't be tageta. I can help you find anotha goil if you want?" I say stupidly, my hand on the door to go back inside.
"Thanks foa da offa, but I don't want anodda goil." Jack sighed sadly.
I couldn't bear it. I flung the door open and ran into the gambling room. Blink smiled and waved me over to the table. He motioned to his lap, so I sat there watching him. I was trying to help him win, but I got distracted. Out the window, just where I can see him, in the very far corner, sits Jack on the ground. He holds his head in hands and his shoulders heave. He looks at me through the glass. Even though he's far away, I know he's staring.
He's crying.
I made Jack Kelly, fearless Manhattan leader, cry.
What've I done?
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Blink's Girl (A Newsie Fanfiction)
FanfictionI'm Abby Roosevelt. Governor's daughter, yes. But with my mother dead, and my father busy, I can go wherever I want, and do whatever I want. I run away and sleep in the streets, On our way to pick up the famous Jack Kelly, I meet Kid Blink. Do I re...