nearly perfect • jensoo

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jisoo

10 years later

this wasn't a good idea. it was a horrible, horrible idea.

"chaeng," i whispered, tears already gathering at the corner of my eyes. i tugged on her sleeve. "chaeng, this place scares me. please, don't make me stay here."

my only friend, the person i trusted the most in the entire world, enveloped me in a soft hug and told me, "it's only for a day - just to see if you like her, okay?"

i whimpered into her chest and shook my head quickly.

"i won't have to touch her, will i?" i asked after a short pause.

chaeyoung grabbed my shoulders and gently pushed me back. "no, don't worry, jisoo. you don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with."

"i'm not comfortable seeing a shrink," i whispered quickly, the words jumbling together.

chaeyoung frowned sadly at me. "i'll be waiting outside, okay? it won't take too long."

an icy hand gripped my shoulder from behind, and i let out a panicky gasp, slithering out of its grasp.

chaeyoung steadied me and spared the woman who'd touched me an apologetic glance. "she's been like this for years now. i was hoping you'd help her somehow."

the doctor pursed her lips, tilting her head to the side. the perfect bun on top of her head didn't move.

"has anything traumatic happened to her recently?" she finally inquired, gathering up a clipboard and pen. her name tag said "doctor nayoung."

i watched helplessly as chaeyoung's face crumpled in sadness for a split second before forming back into her sad half-smile. "not that i know of, no."

i had done that to her. when i came running to her apartment that night, crying, shivering, alone, she had taken me in and cared for me. and what had i done for her?

refused to tell her anything about what had happened to me.

i could see how much it hurt her, but she tried to hide it.

all of this was my fault.

"alright, well, come into my office, jisoo," doctor nayoung said, interrupting the awkward silence.

i stepped reluctantly into the shiny white room, the smell of antiseptic lingering everywhere.

i was right. it went horribly.

i cried the entire time.

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i'm so tired rn so i'm just gonna publish this without editing - have fun!!