Songs and Poetry by: Jayson Gutierrez

Alexia Pt III

Can you justify your own suicide? What about the lies you fed me as we lied in your bed. You wanted me to remember you forever. It seems as though you got your wish because i think of you everyday. Each day gets harder to live through without your love and guidance. The tears are endless..

I believed you when you said you'd never leave me. I believed in you when you said forever. I couldn't take your pain away. I was just too late to save you. I can't blame you. I think about joining you in the afterlife all the time. I blame myself and I blame your father who pushed you farther over the brink with every drink. The hands that covered you in bruises may not have been my hands but i share the blame as i should've protected you. I can apologize a million times but it won't bring you back. I can't count the tears I've shed over the years for you. Did you ever meet your god? I love you and your beliefs, so excuse me if this is rude but of course you didn't.