I Can't Let You Go

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Em was laying next to Charlie. He was satisfied and panting. Emilia couldn't tell the same. She wanted to show him, how she likes it. What she wants in bed. It took 2 minutes long. Maybe. Or less. "You are incredible" he kissed her shoulder. "I knew I came too soon but your body is perfect and how you use it. Damn. Next time it will be longer I promise" he told her and went to the bathroom. Next time. Em was so disappointed... that was all? He climaxed, and that was all. He didn't even try to give her any pleasure. She didn't even have any time to enjoy it. She did not climaxed at least once. "Fuck, what am I doing." she sighed and covered herself with the blanket. She knew Charlie is gonna leave tomorrow. And she waited it. She wanted to be alone. She did not want to have sex mandatory and boring way every night. Charlie was there whole week long, but she couldn't remember any explosive orgasm with him. Or even any... There wasn't any. When she heard, he opened the bathroom door, she acted like she is sleeping. "Emilia?" he asked, but there were no answer. He turned the lights off and laid down next to her.

Kit woke up for his phone in the morning. It was Rose. "Hi" he said in sleepy voice. "Hi love. How are you?" She asked. "I did not woke you up right? I always got confused with all the time zone differences." She continued. "It doesn't matter. What's up?" Kit answered while yawning. "You should be happier to hear my voice. What's going on?" Rose offended a bit. "Please do not start this. I have a headache. We worked hard in this week. I am just tired." His voice was so emotionless. He did not want to talk with her. "Okay. So... what do you think... you can come to New York for a couple days? We have some days off but I can't go home because we have interviews but you should come and we may talk about our wedding plans finally" her voice was excited. She really wanted to see him. "I don't think I can go now. We have tight schedule. We start the play soon." He sat up on the bed. It was a lie, but he more want to be alone in London than spend time with her. "If you wanna see me, you could solve it." She told him. "But of course I am not that important."

Kit sighed. He really don't have patience for this now. "I am working Rose for fuck sake. Which part is not clear for you? I can't go." He was almost yelling with her. "Fine. It was just an idea. I... miss you" he heard she almost cried. He did not want to hurt her but those days were too much. "We'll see each other when you can come home okay?" He tried to control himself but from his heart he wanted to say... they never should meet again. He just couldn't do it in phone. No. That was not fair after everything. And he was not sure in that minute he wants this. His mind and his heart fought with each other. Rose loved him. If he cannot be with Emilia... there were no better option for him... than Rose.

Emilia and Charlie were hugging at the airport. "I am gonna miss you. I don't wanna leave. Wish I do not have to work." He said while gave her a kiss. "That week were amazing. And... maybe I should be more open to your ... desires. Last night was amazing." He added with a pleased smile. "Yeah it was." Emilia forced a smile. "I'll call you when I am at home. I love you Emilia." He said. "Me too." They kissed each other once more and Charlie grabbed his bags and went to the check-ins. Em waved to him and turned to leave. Worst night of her life. Not the best. Worst. Her mind was racing. He was a good man. He really loved her. Instead of sexual things everything worked fine. But... she missed to be pleased. She thought back to a night when she also did something similar like last night. Of course... with Kit.

2011 - Comic Con - San Diego

Kit opened his door. She was standing there with a little wicked smile. "So you got my message." He said while let her inside. "You were staring me all day, Harington. I swear it looked like you undressing me with your eyes many times. Especially during the interviews. If I did not know you I would say you were jealous." She said to him. "I am not jealous. But did you noticed how Jason teased me? Seriously. What the fuck was that?" he was nervous. Em just watched him and smiled. Of course she noticed how Jason behaved. He deliberately did it, after he noticed how they looked to each other. He wanted to annoy Kit. Em smiled and walked closer to him. "To be honest... I love that white shirt in you. You looked sexy in that." she bitten her lower lip. He raised one of his eyebrow, when Em placed her hand to his chest. Kit placed his hand to her cheek. "I've missed you, Clarke" he said and just staring to her eyes. "Why don't you show me, how much?" she asked him sensually. He kissed her passionately and grabbed her ass. She wanted to feel him. She knew they should not do this... they should be just friends, but Kit was the only man who can satisfy all her desires.