(Hannah's POV)
I had been walking since 6:00 and to be honest I just want to be asleep. I didn't even fix my hair. But I ha e a mini brush so I could brush my hair. I took it out and I heard someone behind me. I quickly spun around to see Kian. "Are you okay.?" He asked. "Yeah I'm fine." I said quietly. "Alright c'mon let's go home." He said. "No." I said sternly. "Why Connor was freaking out when he saw you went in your bed." Kian said. "Arent you dating someone.? Why don't you go worry about her." I snapped walking off. "HANNAH WAIT.!" He yelled trying to run up to me. "I told you to leave me the hell alone.!" I yelled. I ran off. I ran to park and found a secret field. The thing is nobody knows about this secret area but me. Since I ran about 3 miles.and I was out of shape, I was throwing up. Someone came to my side, and I didn't know who it was until I looked up.
(Trevors POV)
I saw someone throwing up. I went over to them and saw that it was hannah. She looked up then looked down. "Hey you okay.?" I asked rubbing her back. She cried and managed to get a quiet no. She then passed out and I picked her up. I took a quick look at her face which was growing pale she had tear stained red puffy cheeks from when she was crying while throwing up. "Connor.! I found her." I said running up to him. "Ok give her to me." He said. I gave her to him and he was running back to the house. "Kian how did she manage to run away from you." I asked walking up to him. "She got upset she just really wanted to be alone. This is all my fault I should've just stopped but being the idiot I am, I thought it would be a good I dead to run after her." He sighed. "She'll be ok." I told him patting his back as we walked back to the house.
We finally reached the house. I held the door open for Connor and he set her on the couch. And quickly went to the kitchen to look for a thermometer. He found it and quickly ran back to her. "Someone get a bucket.!" He yelled. Ricky ran to the garage and back and set down on the floor where she would lean over and throw up. "Whats wrong.?" I asked rubbing my arm. "Her temperature is 100 degrees." He said. "Kian was she running.?" He asked turning to him. "Yeah almost three miles why.?" He asked. "Thats why she sick it'll pass over, she's got asthma." He said frustrated but happy. She leaned over and threw up. She started crying again. "Hey she it's ok it's ok, I'm here." Connor said. She calmed down and started talking. "Can I have water.?" She asked. "Sam, since you kinda caused this, you get her water." I said covering my mouth right after I said it. He glared at me and smiled at her. Sure thing anything for my princess." He said and walked off. " Well, at least I move up from being a object." She said. We all laughed.
(Hannah's POV)
Sam got me water and I drank it all. I did have some feelings for him but they changed when I realized he would treat me like a princess then bring a girl home every night. So I quickly moved on to kian. "I'm going to go brush my teeth." I said. "Alright." Connor said. I walked upstairs to my bathroom. I brushed my teeth and used mouth rinse to make sure that my mouth didn't smell like puke and death. I spit out the mouth was and went downstairs k hear they were talking and stopped halfwAy downstate so I could eavesdrop. "No of course I don't love her, I've told house about a million times, I never will. I only like her as a friend." Kian said. I felt my heart break into a million pieces. "Thats all I wanted to hear, now I can go after her. Thanks bro." Sam chuckled. I found a tear escape from my eye as I ran upstairs I slammed my bedroom door and locked it. Why am I so upset.? I mean I knew he didn't love me so why am I so heart broken.? I pulled out a razor blade from my drawer. I haven't done this in years. So why start now.? I've been doing so good plus Connor would be so heart broken if he sees all the cuts. I placed the razor on my wrist and slid it across.I did over and over until I couldn't take the pain. I made a total of 20 cuts 10 on one arm and 10 on another. I grabbed a towel and wiped up all the blood dripping from my arm. I uploaded the video that I had on my camerA and started filming the one I had in mind today. I turned on the camera and started recording. "Hey loves.! This video is gonna be a little different then my usual ones. By the title of this video I'm sure you already know it's about something personal and I haven't shared with anyone at all. My story. Of course my brother knows becAuse we went through it together and maybe he will share his experience some day but I'm doing it today. So here it goes... as you all know that I live with my brother Connor because after many years of abuse and bullying my parents died and I was about 16 and Connor was 18 so he had his own place. I moved in with him and it was just the best life. I had been experiencing and suffering from depression since the age of 12. I was cutting and everything Nd people were calling me names and bullying me. Then I would come home and my parents would abuse me. I've even attempted suicide a couple of times. But when I moved in with connor, he made all of tat go away. He even homeschooled me like the good brother he is. I was doing so good but I heard something I wasn't supposed to, and then I heard something I didn't want to. Since I'm super sensitive anything someone stronger than me hears something stupid, like your crush doesn't like you back wouldn't phase them at all. But like I said I'm super sensitive so it matters.and hurts me which caused this." I said showing my fresh cuts to the camera. "Believe me there are days where I wish I was super strong and not a emo girl like everyone says. I wish that almost everyday. I want desperately for that to happen, just to wake up and know that nothing anybody says can't phase you is a feeling I've been wanting for a long time. But my message to anyone else who feels like or is suffering from depression is this, somewhere in the world is someone who would give their whole world to you. Yeah sure, people are so self considerate but that's life. You realize that life is going to throw obstacles at you when you think you aren't ready. But you are. There are good things in life. Just know I'm here. Live life like there's no tomorrow live life like you have all Tue freedom in the world because you do. Just don't break the law, don't live life knowing what if. Live life knowing you did do that on thing you've always wanted to. I promise you we will get through this together. Y o urban arms are made for bracelets not self harm. I'm battling this too. But I know you guys he tee with me every step of the way. And I'm here with you. Just know that. I love every single on of you guys, stay fancy. Bye loves." I said as I stopped recording. I opened the door to see kian. He looked like he was crying. He grabbed my arms and I winced at the pain as he grabbed tighter and tighter. His fingers were on top of my cuts I started crying and whimpered. "Stop you're hurting me.!" I yelled as I got out of his grip. I ran out of the house. Not knowing I was in the middle of the street and a car was coming by and it wasn't slowing down. Within a matter of seconds I felt a sharp pain in my side. I felt light headed and blacked out.
