Its been almost a week since I've talked to Scott and I've been thinking about it a lot. contemplating if I want to go back to them. the answer was never clear but I do miss them.
About two weeks ago Derek called Isaac to come over to his place/the packed house for the pack meeting and training session. at first, he said no that he wouldn't go after all the thing they did to me and Rudi, shutting us out for that long and that he can't forgive them for that.... not even Scott.
Isaac was still pissed at Derek, and I know why he was but still. he's his alpha so I talk to him and told him why he should go. I'm not gonna lie it took me about 30 minutes to convinced to so. however, in the end, he told me he was going to go also that he will stay by his alpha side. nevertheless, he didn't want me to think that just because he's doing that he doesn't care and that he doesn't want to stay by my side. cause he does and that's a fact.
I think he thinks that if he goes there I might speculate that he's choosing him over me, which is not the case at all. I want him to be with his pack with his family. I don't want to be the reason why he's not there, I mean this is one of the reasons I didn't even want to have Rudi although it already happened and I've already ruined everything. I didn't want to ruin his life believe me (oh god who am I even talking about anymore).
I told Isaac that if he wants to stay at Derek's house just for a day or two he can. also if he wants to hang out with the pack members he can do that too. he doesn't have to go through me first and tell me, he's old enough to do whatever he wants and I don't want to stop him from being with his pack.
the pack is in the Preserve looking for the pack that's there. they already killed two guys and still nothing has shown up nobody knows who it is. the pack can't catch a scent at all for some reason.... it scares me a little. I don't even know if it's a werewolf anymore but it scares me to know that there's a monster out there that could attack and kill a weak human like me and well Rudi. right now I don't know if it's my mother senses that are talking but I want to get the hell out of Beacon Hill. thinking that there's a chance that something bad can happen to my child, it just... I don't even want to think about it. I don't want her to be involved in the Supernatural shit like I am.
I just finished washing Ruby's clothes just a few hours ago and now I'm folding them I never thought that 2 months old would have so many dirty clothes. I was halfway done with folding and organizing Ruby's clothes when I got a phone call from Isaac. he sounded worried on the other line so I asked him what's wrong and just burst into tears.

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